The highlight of my day. . .
My mum is being a sweetheart and making me noodles.
She knows how hard this whole thing is taking a tole on my spirit.
What she doesn't know is that drugs are still being used.
I am a terrible daughter.
I have broken her will over and over again.
And now she suggested that I throw a party at the end of the year and invite all of my DA friends.
Should I really?
Should I let you see the mess I have become?
Subject you to the disease that is myself?
I honestly don't think you could handle it.
But I miss you all so very much.
Know that.
Everytime I hit a joint, I think of Alex.
I think of how much it would kill her to see it.
I think of how hard Jessi has worked to get her life back in order.
I think of how far Tyla and Becky have gotten without drugs.
I think of how Angela always seemed to do better without the drugs.
I think of Liz and how much I miss her. I really do, and I wish she could know that.
You guys, it's getting awfully scary by myself.
I am turning into everything that I hated about Laura.
I feel like I am dreaming non-stop and at somepoint I'll wake up and everything will go back to normal. But it won't.
It just wont.
She knows how hard this whole thing is taking a tole on my spirit.
What she doesn't know is that drugs are still being used.
I am a terrible daughter.
I have broken her will over and over again.
And now she suggested that I throw a party at the end of the year and invite all of my DA friends.
Should I really?
Should I let you see the mess I have become?
Subject you to the disease that is myself?
I honestly don't think you could handle it.
But I miss you all so very much.
Know that.
Everytime I hit a joint, I think of Alex.
I think of how much it would kill her to see it.
I think of how hard Jessi has worked to get her life back in order.
I think of how far Tyla and Becky have gotten without drugs.
I think of how Angela always seemed to do better without the drugs.
I think of Liz and how much I miss her. I really do, and I wish she could know that.
You guys, it's getting awfully scary by myself.
I am turning into everything that I hated about Laura.
I feel like I am dreaming non-stop and at somepoint I'll wake up and everything will go back to normal. But it won't.
It just wont.