I was trying to be a skeleton key... trying to fit every Dom's idea of the perfect submissive. As a result, I was merely a skeleton.
Weekend was rejuvenating in so many ways. Finally got to feel a pure submission without worry or confusion for the first time in a long time. Also had an empowering MS moment - was prodded into explaining why I had to do shots, and I ended up giving a two-sentence lecture on interferon treatment for MS patients. The response was positive and not terribly stressful.
Have to be able to control your own actions before you can allow someone else to direct you in that control.
Went to a movie with three men on Saturday... two I've slept with in the past, and one I probably wouldn't mind. Held hands with two of them at once. What is the world coming to? lol
Was close to orgasm at the hands of another for the first time in at least a year. And close was good enough to start breaking down the mental block I have against the abilities of others.