Life
Life in general. I'm scared and excited. My stomachs in knots. I feel sick. What do I do? I didn't talk to Christy at all last night. I feel really bad for that but I need some space ya know. I've always giving her the space she wanted when she wanted it so I hope she understands. My Mom and Ernie understood that. I miss her greatly but I'm happy that I got to hang out with my cousins and my friends. I met this really cool girl last night. And when I say met, I mean I've known her for a minute but actually took the time last night to talk to her. She's really very sweet. I Spent most of my night hanging out with my friends watching them get drunk. I wish I liked to drink so I could fit in but actually it's great to be the sober one all the time. At least I'll always remember the night before and always be able to keep myself out of trouble.
This past weekend....
Sunday was my birthday. I'm 19. Yay. It's no different than the day before though. I went to a family reunion with Christy and her family Saturday. It was the weirdest one I've ever been to but I like Chrissy's close family. Sunday Christy's mom made us a cake and her dad made steaks for dinner. He's a great cook and dad. It was cool to spend time with him on fathers day cause I look up to him so much. My dad forgot my birthday for the second year in a row. He did call only after Christy called his girlfriend. I'm not mad at her cause that shows she cares but that sucks on my dads end. I can't get mad at him though. Christy dad says he's been waiting his whole life on his dad and basically has never had him. He can go on through in so why can't I. If I get upset I'm only hurting myself because he would never even know I was mad. That's a very good observation Becky. Anyway, Christy's birthday was yesterday and 'I' screwed it up. I never intended to but even after we were apart I still screwed it up. I'm honestly not worried about it to much though because all that will get made up to her today.
I'm going to get out of here now I think I'm going with a friend for lunch so I need to check up on that. I do miss Christy and I hope when she gets back tonight things will be okay. If not, well....
This past weekend....
Sunday was my birthday. I'm 19. Yay. It's no different than the day before though. I went to a family reunion with Christy and her family Saturday. It was the weirdest one I've ever been to but I like Chrissy's close family. Sunday Christy's mom made us a cake and her dad made steaks for dinner. He's a great cook and dad. It was cool to spend time with him on fathers day cause I look up to him so much. My dad forgot my birthday for the second year in a row. He did call only after Christy called his girlfriend. I'm not mad at her cause that shows she cares but that sucks on my dads end. I can't get mad at him though. Christy dad says he's been waiting his whole life on his dad and basically has never had him. He can go on through in so why can't I. If I get upset I'm only hurting myself because he would never even know I was mad. That's a very good observation Becky. Anyway, Christy's birthday was yesterday and 'I' screwed it up. I never intended to but even after we were apart I still screwed it up. I'm honestly not worried about it to much though because all that will get made up to her today.
I'm going to get out of here now I think I'm going with a friend for lunch so I need to check up on that. I do miss Christy and I hope when she gets back tonight things will be okay. If not, well....