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Crappy, Confused, drained, depressed, stressed, blank, bored, exhausted, frustrated, gloomy, indescribable, lonely, restless, sad, scared and tired. This is how I feel. I don't know what to do cause all I have to do is sit around and wait. Wait for what...for christy to call, for christy to e-mail me back, for christy to just send me a message saying she loved me. Anything, I guess. I'm so torn up about last night. I feel like I totally f*cked things up with Christy. I don't know why I feel like that but I do. She says she's not mad at me so I can only take what she says. Well, lets see, yesterday afternoon I got a call from Christy. She wanted me to come down and spend sometime with her. She already knew I had plans with my cousins that night but I figured what the hell I'll go down there and see her for a while. I mean I got to spend 4 hours with her and since I didn't plan to see her till sunday that was great. We went out to eat with her mom and dad then went back to her house. During the drive to her house I manage to kiss on her neck and rub my hands on her soft, warm body. It was wonderful. I missed doing that so much. She would just look over at me and kiss me whenever she could. I can still see deep into her eyes while she's looking at me. I wanted her so bad and I could till she wanted me. When we got to her house we went to the store for her mom and then went to her room to "watch a movie." Well, you might have guess I did see any of the movie.