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the bf. the never ending story of the bf.
things got amazing again. for the past two months his been there for me, we've seen each other every day practically, and when i was with him i was happy. and then we talked about how he was trying for a job in delaware so he would be 20 minutes from campus. i got excited. it seemed like he was finnaly getting serious about our relationship.
but then he got a job in NY and he took it. and I'm angry that i wont get to see him nearly as much anymore. angry that he wasnt persistant enough in getting a job around here. i dont want a long distance relationship and he did it anyway. its not what i need and its not what i want. i need someone who loves me enough to wanna stay. and he didnt. but i cant dump him, b/c it would be a bitch move if i did. i have to try it. plus, i totally fell in love with him again. and i feel like i am deeper into this relationship then he is. this is not a good place to be. sometimes i think the worst mistake i made was letting myself fall in love with him. it seems like i keep getting burned. but he might be coming down to md this summer....this way u can all meet the guy i keep talking about.
things got amazing again. for the past two months his been there for me, we've seen each other every day practically, and when i was with him i was happy. and then we talked about how he was trying for a job in delaware so he would be 20 minutes from campus. i got excited. it seemed like he was finnaly getting serious about our relationship.
but then he got a job in NY and he took it. and I'm angry that i wont get to see him nearly as much anymore. angry that he wasnt persistant enough in getting a job around here. i dont want a long distance relationship and he did it anyway. its not what i need and its not what i want. i need someone who loves me enough to wanna stay. and he didnt. but i cant dump him, b/c it would be a bitch move if i did. i have to try it. plus, i totally fell in love with him again. and i feel like i am deeper into this relationship then he is. this is not a good place to be. sometimes i think the worst mistake i made was letting myself fall in love with him. it seems like i keep getting burned. but he might be coming down to md this summer....this way u can all meet the guy i keep talking about.