I sing just like Aretha, so respect me like I'm Caesar....
I'm in Atlanta for the weekend because there is an AWA meeting tomorrow, so naturally my mom met me and Jenn and we went to a restaurant I haven't been to in a while--Altobeli's! It's a cute little piano bar in Alpharetta. I was lucky enough to get up and sing in front of the crowd so yay! It's always a good night when I get to sing. ^_^ I messed up a few words but I wasn't terrible considering I had never practiced with the pianist before and that I wasn't looking at the words I had looked up on my iphone. x__x Oh well, live and learn.
One of the things I found odd today was that when I went to Altobeli's website (in order to find directions to them) I saw that my ex boyfriend was their webmaster. And the bottom totally dropped out of my stomach. I know it sounds silly but I was frightened at just seeing his name. I hate that just his name is still enough to set me on edge. I'd like to just be indifferent to him but it seems my subconscious is not going to let me do that.
It was just sobering to realize how easily it is for me to run into something from the past that haunts me.
Mentally I understand that he taught me a very valuable lesson that I will not forget. I understand that I was vulnerable and in a bad place and that either by choice or opportunity he took advantage of me. And that even though I feel somewhat ashamed of even having the relationship, I shouldn't be because everyone makes mistakes.
And I'd write more but my sister's keyboard is driving me nuts...it's one of the ergonomic ones, and usually that wouldn't bother me except you have to PUNCH any of the keys you want to type....it's difficult. x_X More later hopefully, hope you all are doing well out there in internet land. :)