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today i had somewat of lousy day. slept late last night and ended up sleepin like a log dis morn. cabed to sch with izwah but still arrived late. it was all ok till my lecturer did her group to group rounds... mati lah aku, i said to myslef. i tried smokin my way thru rgding de project slides but obviously dia dah pangkah kita rabak2. i felt so demoralised with some of the things she said. what fish lah hah.
den time past by so fast just so so fast. i dunno wat is wrong with u. humans make mistakes. maybe i didnt call u and maybe i thot i did but nevertheless i msged u saying good noon and etc. which meant i stole sometime away to stop track and inform u i was thinkin of u. even a little but still i did. den i called u when i was off frm sch. but u had to pick a fight. for no reason. and things that u said to me. words that u used to curse me.. i feel so sad knwing that ive tolerated this time and time again... tell me what i did that deserved me gettin called a perempuan murah, perempuan this and that... i noe its shameful but this time im clueless as to what i did..
im tearing thinkin abt all this things. becos as days pass by im beginning to think that maybe the problem lies with me. that maybe im just born to not be treated right. i understand that as a human being i have so many flaws.. its difficult and i salute hakeem for stickin arnd for almost 2 years. but see, even that expired. or issit maybe im just not worth it? or maybe im just never the best girl...
it feels childish to be talkin abt all this. but then again i have the right to write wat i want. so u bitches who even dare think of dissin me and my thoughts kau semua boleh minum shampoo and terjun sungai. ataupun pergi mati. ah worst come to worst everybody just leave me alone. im a jinx. to YOU, who am i to u? who are u to call me such names to make me feel as if i had no maruah at all... im not perempuan murahan im nothing of what u called me.
fuck u.
den time past by so fast just so so fast. i dunno wat is wrong with u. humans make mistakes. maybe i didnt call u and maybe i thot i did but nevertheless i msged u saying good noon and etc. which meant i stole sometime away to stop track and inform u i was thinkin of u. even a little but still i did. den i called u when i was off frm sch. but u had to pick a fight. for no reason. and things that u said to me. words that u used to curse me.. i feel so sad knwing that ive tolerated this time and time again... tell me what i did that deserved me gettin called a perempuan murah, perempuan this and that... i noe its shameful but this time im clueless as to what i did..
im tearing thinkin abt all this things. becos as days pass by im beginning to think that maybe the problem lies with me. that maybe im just born to not be treated right. i understand that as a human being i have so many flaws.. its difficult and i salute hakeem for stickin arnd for almost 2 years. but see, even that expired. or issit maybe im just not worth it? or maybe im just never the best girl...
it feels childish to be talkin abt all this. but then again i have the right to write wat i want. so u bitches who even dare think of dissin me and my thoughts kau semua boleh minum shampoo and terjun sungai. ataupun pergi mati. ah worst come to worst everybody just leave me alone. im a jinx. to YOU, who am i to u? who are u to call me such names to make me feel as if i had no maruah at all... im not perempuan murahan im nothing of what u called me.
fuck u.