looking for an answer

[girl_in_glass]

it's been some time since i've written in here. i guess i've had so much in my head that it's hard for me to squeak out a word.
there's something about lately that i feel that i'm reliving my past. like here, let's do it again and here's your chance to do it differently. not that i would change anything from my past, but i guess i don't want to repeat any of it either because i'm less likely to have new mental shifts if i just do the same thing. then again, i've changed in so many ways over the years that the same experience could lead to a new result.

i've been having a hard time deciphering my dreams from reality. this has never been a problem for me. sure, i've had a dream that a friend or boyfriend has been mean to me and i wake up feeling hurt or mad at them, but it's a quick jump to reality and all is eased. but lately, my dreams leave me shaken and even though i tell myself and know they are just a dream, i still feel very shaken by them.
these have not been dreams, they've been nightmares.

i woke up at 7 a.m. and i'm still feeling uneasy. this is how it has been lately.

maybe i need therapy.
i definitely need something.
my subconscious and conscious are de compartmentalized and i feel that they are trying to communicate to each other in different languages. both are languages that i don't know.

i need a word of wisdom.
let's hear it.