the grass is green
woah. i spent so much time bitching about how slack this slack as school is and then suddenly i realized while bitching that my homework is piling up and my deadlines are speeding toward me.
i'm so fucking tired, you guys.
so tired.
when i'm not at school or working all i want to do is lay on my bed. or sit on the couch. i don't want to read, shower, clean, call people, cook, anything. i just want to sit and let my mind go all squishy.
i need a nap.
i need to laugh really hard.
i need to take a hike in the woods and feel the calm of the trees.
my life is fast and my eyesight is blurry. i ride multiple loops around pdx daily from home to school to work to home to school to home to work. and i'm permanently sweaty and hot while my clothes are permanently damp from the rain.
i want to have time to look at things.
and yet i remember how not long ago i thought my life was so dull and i had too much time on my hands. too much relaxation. oh the irony.
i always want what i don't have i guess.
i'm so fucking tired, you guys.
so tired.
when i'm not at school or working all i want to do is lay on my bed. or sit on the couch. i don't want to read, shower, clean, call people, cook, anything. i just want to sit and let my mind go all squishy.
i need a nap.
i need to laugh really hard.
i need to take a hike in the woods and feel the calm of the trees.
my life is fast and my eyesight is blurry. i ride multiple loops around pdx daily from home to school to work to home to school to home to work. and i'm permanently sweaty and hot while my clothes are permanently damp from the rain.
i want to have time to look at things.
and yet i remember how not long ago i thought my life was so dull and i had too much time on my hands. too much relaxation. oh the irony.
i always want what i don't have i guess.