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I'm fucking tired.
mentally, physically, which ever way possible.
I'm so close to giving up, I already have in away. I'm losing my grip on what's real and what isn't.
I fuck up in school, I fuck up at home, I fuck up within myself.
It doesn't help any when she tells me I'm fucked up, and I have nothing to show for myself. "Why can't you be like your brother and your sister? They own houses, they run their own businesses, they have healthy, successful relationships. What are you doing so wrong with yourself?"
"You're a cold, heartless person, COLD, WORTHLESS, NOTHING."
She makes me feel disgusting.
Only lots and lots of music will make this go away, even for just a little while.
While everything around me just dissipates.
mentally, physically, which ever way possible.
I'm so close to giving up, I already have in away. I'm losing my grip on what's real and what isn't.
I fuck up in school, I fuck up at home, I fuck up within myself.
It doesn't help any when she tells me I'm fucked up, and I have nothing to show for myself. "Why can't you be like your brother and your sister? They own houses, they run their own businesses, they have healthy, successful relationships. What are you doing so wrong with yourself?"
"You're a cold, heartless person, COLD, WORTHLESS, NOTHING."
She makes me feel disgusting.
Only lots and lots of music will make this go away, even for just a little while.
While everything around me just dissipates.