I'm usually so laid back I'm comatose but...
I’ve been feeling very ‘on edge’ today and my stomach hasn’t been right for the past few days and I think I finally figured out why that is.
I’m semi consciously worrying about this film. Usually when I’m part of one I’m the director, editor, actor etc all in one and I have control over it and know what I want. It’s so weird for me to be on the other side of the camera and have no inkling of what is going on and I haven’t seen an ounce of film yet. So I don’t even know what it looks like. I don’t know if Andrew saw any. But I’m just totally nervous about it. I don’t think I’ll breathe properly until I know he’s submitted it and I have a copy. And then I don’t think I could stand to watch it, but I know I’ll cave and watch it and pick allllll my mistakes and my personal flaws. But then, Jonathan knows what he wants and he would have asked us to go again and again if he didn’t get what he wanted. I was hoping to be known as ‘3 take Cait’, but alas, I didn’t lol came close though. Suppose I just have to leave it up to him and the bloke upstairs.
But having said all that, I did see some still photos that alana took and it looks surprising good. But she is a good photographer.
I’m semi consciously worrying about this film. Usually when I’m part of one I’m the director, editor, actor etc all in one and I have control over it and know what I want. It’s so weird for me to be on the other side of the camera and have no inkling of what is going on and I haven’t seen an ounce of film yet. So I don’t even know what it looks like. I don’t know if Andrew saw any. But I’m just totally nervous about it. I don’t think I’ll breathe properly until I know he’s submitted it and I have a copy. And then I don’t think I could stand to watch it, but I know I’ll cave and watch it and pick allllll my mistakes and my personal flaws. But then, Jonathan knows what he wants and he would have asked us to go again and again if he didn’t get what he wanted. I was hoping to be known as ‘3 take Cait’, but alas, I didn’t lol came close though. Suppose I just have to leave it up to him and the bloke upstairs.
But having said all that, I did see some still photos that alana took and it looks surprising good. But she is a good photographer.