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What a confusing past few weeks it has been. Not sure what I'm going to do about it all yet but dang I'm sick of drama. As Kelly would say these are the days of our lives. eeehehehe anyone wanna join my hermit colony that I'm going to set up in the mountain? Ha just kidding.
Anyway, story time!
Well it all started at the pirate & wench party, I ended up with this kid Nate who is a really good friend of mine and at first I was all like you have a girlfriend and he was like no I dont and I was like yes you do (yeah I was more than a bit tipsy). We had a talk and I ended up admiting that I've had a crush on him for a long time but I didn't want to say anything because he had a girlfriend. Also during this I ended up agreeing to go to his little brothers hockey game the next day, I actually did go and ended up meeting his parents, panic much?!
Couple of days after the hockey game he comes to me and tells me he needs time to get his feelings sorted and stuff which is totally understandable because he had been seeing this girl for almost a year. We ended up talking for a long time and we were cool and eveything.
Couple nights later we all end up in his room playing I've never. Pretty much an amazing game not gonna lie. But a few hours in Nate gets a call from his ex so he leaves to go talk to her so it's me, Kelly, Mike, Dave and Meagan left in the room which is fine until it turns to strip I've never. Long story short ended up kissing Dave, which was weird in of itself, then Nate coming back and we are all half naked, awkward much?
So I pretty much panic for all day Sunday and most of Monday. I knew I had to talk to him before he had time to really think it over and make a decision without hearing me out. So I spend all day looking for the kid, who is as elusive as a yeti I swear. Finally find him at like 5:30pm but I have class at 6:00 so I was all like can I borrow you after class? It was really awkward because all his friends were in there but at this point I didn't really care so much. I spent all of Art Appreciation (2 1/2 hours thanks) tweaking out because I was convinced he was going to hate me. He came down and we talked and he thought I was crazy for freaking out. Apparently he was freaking out after I found him because he thought I was going to tell him I wasn't going to wait for him anymore. None of this was so bad, I could deal with it. At least until the real drama started.
One day I woke up and I could tell it was going to be a bad day but I had to get up because I had an exam. So basically I went through this day and was pretty much mentally and emotionally exhausted. That night I was checking my myspace and I got this message from someone that I thought I recognized but wasn't sure so I looked at it and it was from Nate. It said something along the lines of I really want to hang out more I just wanted to make sure I was done with the whole girlfriend thing. I send him one back that says I'm glad you've worked things out and I would love to hang out more. Go up to Kelly and Ashley's room and tell them the story and Ashley tells me to check and see if he wrote anything back. So I check and he sent a message back saying why didn't you say anything back, I put myself out there for nothing? I figure myspace is being dumb so I walk down to his room on the next floor down. I was all like I did send you a message back and he just gave me a confused look and I was like you didn't send me a message did you? Turns out his ex got on to his account and sent me those messages. Not gonna lie I don't think I've been that hurt in a really long time which really sucked.
Next day we were all supposed to go to a concert. It's a local band and some of our friends play in it. So we all go and it's kind of awkward because Nate is there and we still hadn't settled what had happened the night before so I was kind of angry so I ignored him for the time being or I would probably slap him or something. I'm standing there and I get a text from Nate. At first I was like this is lame he is standing 5ft away from me. We send messages back and forth for awhile and I was pretty much done talking to him when I get this text that says I would ask you to dance but its kind of hard to dance if you know what I mean. Pretty much made my heart smile.
Anyway after the concert we had a impromptu party at Kelly's sisters house. Had a couple of glasses of wine which effected me more than I thought it would so I was all like hey Meg can you help me sit down. It was a long way to the couch and I didn't feel like taking any chances. So I'm sitting by myself, kind of far away from everyone and Nate comes to sit next to me and keep me company which was nice but I was still really upset at this point so I was tweaking out a little bit but I didn't want to cry infront of everybody and luckily he noticed and took me to another room. Good thing to because in the time it took him to close the door and turn around I was bawling my eyes out. I was borderline unstable and the whole crap with whatsherface just pushed me over the edge. So we spend the entire night talking about that and just random stuff and how things were over between him and lauren and how he is ready to move on with his life and life was good again.
Things were good until this weekend when he went home. Up until then it was all good, we would have stupid text arguments which made me laugh hysterically for hours and he would come and just sit in our room and talk until 2am. I haven't seen him since Friday and apparentyl he's locked himself in his room and doesnt want to come out so his friends are pissed at him. I dunno... suppposed to go shopping for fish with him and Meg which should be interesting, we will see how that goes I guess!
Sorry for long post, just had to get that out of my system and I feel much better for it! yeeeeey!
Anyway, story time!
Well it all started at the pirate & wench party, I ended up with this kid Nate who is a really good friend of mine and at first I was all like you have a girlfriend and he was like no I dont and I was like yes you do (yeah I was more than a bit tipsy). We had a talk and I ended up admiting that I've had a crush on him for a long time but I didn't want to say anything because he had a girlfriend. Also during this I ended up agreeing to go to his little brothers hockey game the next day, I actually did go and ended up meeting his parents, panic much?!
Couple of days after the hockey game he comes to me and tells me he needs time to get his feelings sorted and stuff which is totally understandable because he had been seeing this girl for almost a year. We ended up talking for a long time and we were cool and eveything.
Couple nights later we all end up in his room playing I've never. Pretty much an amazing game not gonna lie. But a few hours in Nate gets a call from his ex so he leaves to go talk to her so it's me, Kelly, Mike, Dave and Meagan left in the room which is fine until it turns to strip I've never. Long story short ended up kissing Dave, which was weird in of itself, then Nate coming back and we are all half naked, awkward much?
So I pretty much panic for all day Sunday and most of Monday. I knew I had to talk to him before he had time to really think it over and make a decision without hearing me out. So I spend all day looking for the kid, who is as elusive as a yeti I swear. Finally find him at like 5:30pm but I have class at 6:00 so I was all like can I borrow you after class? It was really awkward because all his friends were in there but at this point I didn't really care so much. I spent all of Art Appreciation (2 1/2 hours thanks) tweaking out because I was convinced he was going to hate me. He came down and we talked and he thought I was crazy for freaking out. Apparently he was freaking out after I found him because he thought I was going to tell him I wasn't going to wait for him anymore. None of this was so bad, I could deal with it. At least until the real drama started.
One day I woke up and I could tell it was going to be a bad day but I had to get up because I had an exam. So basically I went through this day and was pretty much mentally and emotionally exhausted. That night I was checking my myspace and I got this message from someone that I thought I recognized but wasn't sure so I looked at it and it was from Nate. It said something along the lines of I really want to hang out more I just wanted to make sure I was done with the whole girlfriend thing. I send him one back that says I'm glad you've worked things out and I would love to hang out more. Go up to Kelly and Ashley's room and tell them the story and Ashley tells me to check and see if he wrote anything back. So I check and he sent a message back saying why didn't you say anything back, I put myself out there for nothing? I figure myspace is being dumb so I walk down to his room on the next floor down. I was all like I did send you a message back and he just gave me a confused look and I was like you didn't send me a message did you? Turns out his ex got on to his account and sent me those messages. Not gonna lie I don't think I've been that hurt in a really long time which really sucked.
Next day we were all supposed to go to a concert. It's a local band and some of our friends play in it. So we all go and it's kind of awkward because Nate is there and we still hadn't settled what had happened the night before so I was kind of angry so I ignored him for the time being or I would probably slap him or something. I'm standing there and I get a text from Nate. At first I was like this is lame he is standing 5ft away from me. We send messages back and forth for awhile and I was pretty much done talking to him when I get this text that says I would ask you to dance but its kind of hard to dance if you know what I mean. Pretty much made my heart smile.
Anyway after the concert we had a impromptu party at Kelly's sisters house. Had a couple of glasses of wine which effected me more than I thought it would so I was all like hey Meg can you help me sit down. It was a long way to the couch and I didn't feel like taking any chances. So I'm sitting by myself, kind of far away from everyone and Nate comes to sit next to me and keep me company which was nice but I was still really upset at this point so I was tweaking out a little bit but I didn't want to cry infront of everybody and luckily he noticed and took me to another room. Good thing to because in the time it took him to close the door and turn around I was bawling my eyes out. I was borderline unstable and the whole crap with whatsherface just pushed me over the edge. So we spend the entire night talking about that and just random stuff and how things were over between him and lauren and how he is ready to move on with his life and life was good again.
Things were good until this weekend when he went home. Up until then it was all good, we would have stupid text arguments which made me laugh hysterically for hours and he would come and just sit in our room and talk until 2am. I haven't seen him since Friday and apparentyl he's locked himself in his room and doesnt want to come out so his friends are pissed at him. I dunno... suppposed to go shopping for fish with him and Meg which should be interesting, we will see how that goes I guess!
Sorry for long post, just had to get that out of my system and I feel much better for it! yeeeeey!