So maybe I've been writing again

[ginzai]

I think I haven't updated this particular journal in nigh on two and a half years. Maybe more, at this point. It's been a long time, anyway. But this has always sort of been my writing and fandom journal and lately, well, I've been having more writing and fandom type thoughts. So in that vein, SPN finale coda fic, anyone

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[ladylothwen]

Oh Sammy

That right there is what I've been holding fast too since the beginning of this season.

[ginzai]

S4 is the season that taught me to love Sam. I mean, it's not that I didn't like him before, it's just that he didn't really appeal to me that much before. Now though? Oh man, I love him to bits and pieces and he just breaks my heart because he tried so hard to do the right things and instead everything went straight to pot. Oh, Sam. I just sort of want to scoop him up and feed him cookies and tell him everything will be okay.

[ladylothwen]

Exactly. I've always loved Sam but this season I found my self paying more attention to him when he wasn't at the center of attention. His story is just so heartbreaking and he needs cookies and hugs.

[ginzai]

Oh, I have SUCH LOVE for that icon! It's just gorgeous!

I think my issue with Sam previously is that I got tired of his How Will I Turn Evil Today? mindset when there were absolutely no signs whatsoever that he had an evil bone in his body. He wasn't all light and puppies or the like, you could see him be prideful and occasionally spiteful, and he had flaws, but nothing that ever could be considered evil. And then to add to that, each time those flaws came up, they were almost immediately brushed aside, without any consequences explored for whatever mistake he made or sin committed. And that made me lose interest in him, because I love me my flawed characters and I need to see those flaws explored.

So when we get this slightly darker Sam in S4, whose flaws are right out there in the open for the whole world to see? And when it really looks like there will be some honest consequences for his behavior? My interest abounds. And in trying to puzzle out where he was coming from this season and why he was doing what he does, I

[ladylothwen]

In the Pilot we basically learn that it's pride that's keeping the Winchester family apart. Sam's pride has always, always been his biggest downfall. On both John and Sam's sides actually. Dean was very right in saying in Jump the Shark that John and Sam are very similar. Both are revenge fueled and narrow sighted about the bigger picture once they get what they want their scopes.

But neither were ever evil

Sam's character has always been very consistent and I for one was not surprised one bit by his behavior. The blood drinking threw me though.He had already taken a dark turn in Season 3, especially Mystery Spot, which foreshadowed what was to happen in Season 4 only minus Ruby.

Each and every one of his flaws has come out this season and it was well worth the wait in my opinion.

(And thanks for the compliment on the icon!)

[ginzai]

Oh, and that one is pretty too. I've got such a love for masks.

Oh, totally agreed on the John-Sam similarities. It's one of the things that I've always liked about his character, how he struggled with his father but had absolutely no clue how very similar they were. And yes, absolutely, neither one was ever evil.

I'm not surprised about Sam's behavior; I am sort of surprised that the show went this far with it though. I think it's fascinating to compare the Sam in MS to what we see in S4, because they're not quite the same. Both are extremely focused on their goal and will let nothing stop them, both are willing to make sacrifices for that goal, but what each one was aiming at was so very, very different