Heart broken...
I never thought I'd post more than once in such a short time, but I have a question and a bit of a story to jot down.
Is it physically possible for your own heart to break when the heart of one of your muses, original or otherwise, breaks?
I never thought it was possible, until I was spoiled just now on youtube, by someone who thought it would be funny to label their video of Crisis Core cutscenes wrong. I clicked it assuming that I'd be getting cut scenes of a humourous variety, as that was what the uploader had marked it as.
Instead, I was barraged by the SADDEST moments of the game, along with scenes I had not seen yet, nor would EVER want to see.
I'm on the verge of tears here and unfortunately, they're not my own. My chest hurts, my body aches, my head hurts and I'm going to cry, all because my Angeal!muse's heart has been broken.
I know some of you may hand me ideas like 'well, Angeal is dead, so he shouldn't be sad over seeing Zack's death and the loving tribute Cloud gives him, becuase he wasn't there to see it.' Well to you I say, bullshit. My muse is alive and well regardless of the timeline inaccuracies and because of this display of stupidity, he is now an emotional wreck and it's rubbing off on me.
I feel like curling up into a ball and crying for days but I know it's not going to solve anything. I know how the game ended. I know what scenes would happen so I purposely avoided them. Maybe I shouldn't have been clicking CC things on youtube anyway, but when it says HUMOROUS CRISIS CORE CUT SCENES, I'm gonna click them to cheer myself up. Not depress myself through the stupidity that was this uploader.
Thanks, asshole. Now I have to spend the next few hours/days/weeks getting this poor man out of his emotionally crippling funk.
I find myself acting more and more like the gruff but loveable old wolf. His personality suits mine beautifully and his attitude in general reflects many of my own traits, so it's painful to feel this way as it also feels too personal, if at all possible.
-sighs- I'm a proud man, Zack, but even my pride won't stop me from saying that I miss you. I don't care how many leagues apart we are or how distant the emotional sea is between us. I only want to see you once more, to tell you how proud of you I truly am...
/rant
Is it physically possible for your own heart to break when the heart of one of your muses, original or otherwise, breaks?
I never thought it was possible, until I was spoiled just now on youtube, by someone who thought it would be funny to label their video of Crisis Core cutscenes wrong. I clicked it assuming that I'd be getting cut scenes of a humourous variety, as that was what the uploader had marked it as.
Instead, I was barraged by the SADDEST moments of the game, along with scenes I had not seen yet, nor would EVER want to see.
I'm on the verge of tears here and unfortunately, they're not my own. My chest hurts, my body aches, my head hurts and I'm going to cry, all because my Angeal!muse's heart has been broken.
I know some of you may hand me ideas like 'well, Angeal is dead, so he shouldn't be sad over seeing Zack's death and the loving tribute Cloud gives him, becuase he wasn't there to see it.' Well to you I say, bullshit. My muse is alive and well regardless of the timeline inaccuracies and because of this display of stupidity, he is now an emotional wreck and it's rubbing off on me.
I feel like curling up into a ball and crying for days but I know it's not going to solve anything. I know how the game ended. I know what scenes would happen so I purposely avoided them. Maybe I shouldn't have been clicking CC things on youtube anyway, but when it says HUMOROUS CRISIS CORE CUT SCENES, I'm gonna click them to cheer myself up. Not depress myself through the stupidity that was this uploader.
Thanks, asshole. Now I have to spend the next few hours/days/weeks getting this poor man out of his emotionally crippling funk.
I find myself acting more and more like the gruff but loveable old wolf. His personality suits mine beautifully and his attitude in general reflects many of my own traits, so it's painful to feel this way as it also feels too personal, if at all possible.
-sighs- I'm a proud man, Zack, but even my pride won't stop me from saying that I miss you. I don't care how many leagues apart we are or how distant the emotional sea is between us. I only want to see you once more, to tell you how proud of you I truly am...
/rant