confused and slightly dazed
my father called joy's father, and i don't know exactly what he said, but now joy's father isn't sure if he wants me to stay with them. i can understand that; i'm just confused because judging from what my father told me was said, he didn't say anything to change joy's father's mind.
i don't know. it made me very very sad to talk to my father yesterday. the conversation was so coarse and distant, but it makes me even sadder to know that the distance wasn't physical and things would have been exactly the same if not worse if i had been right there talking to him.
all i can think about is getting home and how everything will be clearer and easier when i am there. to me, charleston is a fucking paradise after being in maine for so long.
deep breath, and the wait continues.
on an up-note. party of helicopters is having a free show in pittsburgh tonight, so i'll get to hit that up.
i don't know. it made me very very sad to talk to my father yesterday. the conversation was so coarse and distant, but it makes me even sadder to know that the distance wasn't physical and things would have been exactly the same if not worse if i had been right there talking to him.
all i can think about is getting home and how everything will be clearer and easier when i am there. to me, charleston is a fucking paradise after being in maine for so long.
deep breath, and the wait continues.
on an up-note. party of helicopters is having a free show in pittsburgh tonight, so i'll get to hit that up.