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Hello Livejournal... long time no write. Things have been quite hectic. I guess I need to write here to get my mind off thongs... even though I'm not in the mood to write. I can't believe it's already June 6. Time has gone by so fast. Too fast. I can remember back in February, thinking June seemed so far away. Here it is now.
Work starts real soon. Although, technically speaking, I don't know that. I've received no information from camp... not a call, a letter, nothing. I just get my information second hand these days. I couldn't even tell you what my job consists of.. or what I'm being paid.. or anything like that. There was once a time where I looked forward to this summer and imagined that some intelligent people might be running it, but I was wrong. This place is absolutely unbelievable. I feel so angry just thinking about it... so I'm not going to.
School's over. I'm done college forever. Pretty crazy. And pretty fucking depressing. This summer is going to be so long and stressful. I wish I was a better person to deal with it. I wish I had my brothers around all the time to help, but I won't and that's just the reality of it.
I've had some potential job offers. Lock Monsters, and a Marketing Director of a Medical Group my cousin works for. We'll see. I just can't think about that kind of stuff now. Things are going to be very different.
It's been 6 days since my father died and I have these nightmares every night that keep me awake. I know, it sounds very dramatic... but when will it stop? And if it does stop... does that mean I stopped caring? This is much harder than I ever imagined.
I'm going to try to sleep maybe... 'night.
-L
Work starts real soon. Although, technically speaking, I don't know that. I've received no information from camp... not a call, a letter, nothing. I just get my information second hand these days. I couldn't even tell you what my job consists of.. or what I'm being paid.. or anything like that. There was once a time where I looked forward to this summer and imagined that some intelligent people might be running it, but I was wrong. This place is absolutely unbelievable. I feel so angry just thinking about it... so I'm not going to.
School's over. I'm done college forever. Pretty crazy. And pretty fucking depressing. This summer is going to be so long and stressful. I wish I was a better person to deal with it. I wish I had my brothers around all the time to help, but I won't and that's just the reality of it.
I've had some potential job offers. Lock Monsters, and a Marketing Director of a Medical Group my cousin works for. We'll see. I just can't think about that kind of stuff now. Things are going to be very different.
It's been 6 days since my father died and I have these nightmares every night that keep me awake. I know, it sounds very dramatic... but when will it stop? And if it does stop... does that mean I stopped caring? This is much harder than I ever imagined.
I'm going to try to sleep maybe... 'night.
-L