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Omg!ergzz....I have court tommorow...im so freakin nervous......cigarettes just dont calm my nerves anymore...ofcourse i think id die without cigarettes though....theyre like my life...anyhow...tommorow we have to review my brother and tracie and decide if they are good enough to raise the baby....i swear ill kill myself if i lose her...i dont think ill be able to live without her.... she is the reason i wake up everyday...(prolly cuz she's crying and it wakes me up)...but anyhow....and i have nobody goin wit me for support except my mom....ergzz...wheres addam when you need him......well brandon has school and SUPRISE kristan got a job...lol.....so they cant go...so im gonna be alone...just me n lexi....god i love that lil girl....Saturday me n day are going golfing or out on the boat or something...he wants to spend the day wit me....just me n him...its gonna be like so weird...i havent spent the day wit my dad alone in like 4 years.....that stupid bitch wife of his always tags along...but they are getting a divorce well becuz....my dad is an alcoholic and she cant handle it anymore and he thinks hes too old to change...hes not....hes only like 40...its never too late....but whatever....one day he is gonna wake up and realize he has nothing because of his problem....he bought himself a camper to live in until he gets his house built......well im coloring a poster thingy to put in the baby's room....so uh ill be back on later...buh bye!!!muah muah!!!