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i am thinkin i might hate my job
i am thinking about money
i am thinking about finding time to study for my finals
i am thinking about graduation
i am thinking about dieter and how i am never going to get to see him because he's in korea right now and when he comes back he's just going to leave again for sweden and i am going to miss him like i do right now
i am thinking about all the weddings and how they are going to be expensive
i am thinking about how horrible my summer is going to be with working full time and doing an internship for twenty hours a week
i am thinking about how much tomorrow is going to suck because i have an 8 am class and all this stuff is keeping me awake, and then i have to finish the ten page paper i didn't do tonight, and then i have class, and then i have to go to the job that i hate
i am thinking about how hard it is going to be to find a job that i like, seeing as how i don't want to do anything
i am thinking i'd rather just go live in moscow with my mommy and daddy where it is safe and free
i am thinking about seeing shelby and austin and alison and carolina and hopefully brandon and how much fun that will be if i can make it happen
i am thinking about the giant mess on my floor and how it's never going to be cleaned up because all my spare time is consumed with things i am obligated to do
i am thinking about how my bridesmaid dress is too big on top and when will i get that altered
i am thinking about kim's batchelorette party at pleasure island and how that is going to be very expensive and how i don't want to drink because it ended badly
i am thinking about my mom and dad and how i haven't talked to them in a while
i am thinking about the senior banquet and how i still can't get rachael and valerie to be excited about anything KD and how that makes me so sad and mad
i am thinking about how much i want to quit this new job because it hurts me feet and makes my pinky toes swell, and how i don't like the owner and how working in a gallery is what i thought i wanted to do but i may have been wrong
i am thinking i might have to pull my first all nighters during finals week of my senior year
i am thinking about getting approved for this apartment complex and having to get my boss to write me an offer letter
i am thinking about how bad i feel about having to ask for time off already
i am thinking that i am not going to see my parents this summer because i am enslaved
i am thinking that i want to be an elementary art teacher and how i don't know how i can make that happen
i am thinking i picked the wrong major and the wrong career path
i am thinking that college has not prepared me for the real world whatsoever
i am thinking about the tears that are running down my cheeks
i am thinking about how it has only been one week since i have had this crazy schedule and i am already having a meltdown
i am thinking i am going to cry myself to sleep
i am thinking that i don't even have time to fold my laundry
i am thinking that i just want to get married and move away and be a housewife with some kids because that seems easier than being a 22 year old with an hourly job that is not fun
i am thinking that i want my parents to move back to the states
i am thinking that i want my mom
i am thinking that i need a hug but there is no one to hug
i am thinking about how sad i am right now that this experience is ending
i am thinking that i want to go home
i am thinking
i am thinking
i am thinking
and i can't stop.
i am thinking about money
i am thinking about finding time to study for my finals
i am thinking about graduation
i am thinking about dieter and how i am never going to get to see him because he's in korea right now and when he comes back he's just going to leave again for sweden and i am going to miss him like i do right now
i am thinking about all the weddings and how they are going to be expensive
i am thinking about how horrible my summer is going to be with working full time and doing an internship for twenty hours a week
i am thinking about how much tomorrow is going to suck because i have an 8 am class and all this stuff is keeping me awake, and then i have to finish the ten page paper i didn't do tonight, and then i have class, and then i have to go to the job that i hate
i am thinking about how hard it is going to be to find a job that i like, seeing as how i don't want to do anything
i am thinking i'd rather just go live in moscow with my mommy and daddy where it is safe and free
i am thinking about seeing shelby and austin and alison and carolina and hopefully brandon and how much fun that will be if i can make it happen
i am thinking about the giant mess on my floor and how it's never going to be cleaned up because all my spare time is consumed with things i am obligated to do
i am thinking about how my bridesmaid dress is too big on top and when will i get that altered
i am thinking about kim's batchelorette party at pleasure island and how that is going to be very expensive and how i don't want to drink because it ended badly
i am thinking about my mom and dad and how i haven't talked to them in a while
i am thinking about the senior banquet and how i still can't get rachael and valerie to be excited about anything KD and how that makes me so sad and mad
i am thinking about how much i want to quit this new job because it hurts me feet and makes my pinky toes swell, and how i don't like the owner and how working in a gallery is what i thought i wanted to do but i may have been wrong
i am thinking i might have to pull my first all nighters during finals week of my senior year
i am thinking about getting approved for this apartment complex and having to get my boss to write me an offer letter
i am thinking about how bad i feel about having to ask for time off already
i am thinking that i am not going to see my parents this summer because i am enslaved
i am thinking that i want to be an elementary art teacher and how i don't know how i can make that happen
i am thinking i picked the wrong major and the wrong career path
i am thinking that college has not prepared me for the real world whatsoever
i am thinking about the tears that are running down my cheeks
i am thinking about how it has only been one week since i have had this crazy schedule and i am already having a meltdown
i am thinking i am going to cry myself to sleep
i am thinking that i don't even have time to fold my laundry
i am thinking that i just want to get married and move away and be a housewife with some kids because that seems easier than being a 22 year old with an hourly job that is not fun
i am thinking that i want my parents to move back to the states
i am thinking that i want my mom
i am thinking that i need a hug but there is no one to hug
i am thinking about how sad i am right now that this experience is ending
i am thinking that i want to go home
i am thinking
i am thinking
i am thinking
and i can't stop.