It's 230 in the am
I wish I was a better writer. My parents say I'm good, but I know there is much improvement to be had. I FEEL things, but it is SO difficult to explain them without sounding corny or melodramatic. I need to work more on it, there is so much for me to improve on it gets overwhelming at times.
It is horrible that I have been unable to see Josh. It is annoying to become attached to someone, to want their scent and feel around you. I wish I could deal with it better. I haven't gone around whining about it, but I just feel so dejected. There are so many circumstances that keep us from seeing each other, sometimes it feels as if he is in a different state as opposed to in the same city. I sit around, watch tv, do my leg lifts, arms and ab work, study for about eight hundered hours and day dream abou twhen our crazy schedules might finally mesh before we forget each other's faces.