waiting for the sun to rise (subtittled: an thus another semester begins)
despite the sleep deprivation, i really do love being up at this hour. i love seeing the sun rise. and i love the stillness of it all. and last night i got four and half hours of sleep, so it's not so bad.
it's almost five and i've been up for about forty five miniutes. i've had some oatmeal and made some coffee (i wish that q had made it. it always tastes better when she does it.) so now it's time to start reading away. i have a meeting with kelly at eleven, so i need to be at the school by then. i am hoping to get a significant amount of work done by then. we'll see what happens.
so, tuesday morning, in all my stress and worrying and agitation with school, i decided simply not to go to one of my classes. to just be done with it. i've decided that two classes and a capstone and working is as much as one holly can do, so i let class number three go, and i feel waves of relief about it. it means that i won't graduate on time, but i will graduate in june, so it's not a huge difference. it does mean though that i will not participate in graduation, which makes me really sad (i had wanted getting my masters to be a HUGE deal, and i probably won't have another graduation after this...at least for a while anyway). but, i think in all of this, i have learned a really important lesson about recognizing your limitations. i had to realize that i did have limitations, and that i just couldn't do everything i had wanted to and that's ok. so what if i stretch it out two more months. i am still graduating a year or two ahead of other people my age (i'll be 22 when i finish my degree), so what's the worry? and q and i will have a rockin graduation party involvoing kegs and strippers, so, that will be ceremony enough, i am sure.
earlier, this very helpful livejournal haiku spoke to me also:
oh! it's all so clear now!
it's really hard to ignore the cat this time of day. she is HOWLING outside my door. i wish she could come in but she eats my plant and q is allergic. i will miss her when/if i move (which is looking like maybe june first) but i dunno. the idea of moving makes me sad. i love my neighborhood. and i really do like my apartment. but the thought of living with dv any longer is just, well, let's just say i would like to have an apartment that is actually *mine*
last night q and i had a really great conversation about feminism and women's culture that i am reminding myself to write about later. i like that q and i can agree on a lot of issues that most people seem awefully mislead about.
i suppose i should go off and start workingworkingworking. whoot.
hope everybody's well and happy and getting their work done.
*bisou*.
-i
it's almost five and i've been up for about forty five miniutes. i've had some oatmeal and made some coffee (i wish that q had made it. it always tastes better when she does it.) so now it's time to start reading away. i have a meeting with kelly at eleven, so i need to be at the school by then. i am hoping to get a significant amount of work done by then. we'll see what happens.
so, tuesday morning, in all my stress and worrying and agitation with school, i decided simply not to go to one of my classes. to just be done with it. i've decided that two classes and a capstone and working is as much as one holly can do, so i let class number three go, and i feel waves of relief about it. it means that i won't graduate on time, but i will graduate in june, so it's not a huge difference. it does mean though that i will not participate in graduation, which makes me really sad (i had wanted getting my masters to be a HUGE deal, and i probably won't have another graduation after this...at least for a while anyway). but, i think in all of this, i have learned a really important lesson about recognizing your limitations. i had to realize that i did have limitations, and that i just couldn't do everything i had wanted to and that's ok. so what if i stretch it out two more months. i am still graduating a year or two ahead of other people my age (i'll be 22 when i finish my degree), so what's the worry? and q and i will have a rockin graduation party involvoing kegs and strippers, so, that will be ceremony enough, i am sure.
earlier, this very helpful livejournal haiku spoke to me also:
oh! it's all so clear now!
it's really hard to ignore the cat this time of day. she is HOWLING outside my door. i wish she could come in but she eats my plant and q is allergic. i will miss her when/if i move (which is looking like maybe june first) but i dunno. the idea of moving makes me sad. i love my neighborhood. and i really do like my apartment. but the thought of living with dv any longer is just, well, let's just say i would like to have an apartment that is actually *mine*
last night q and i had a really great conversation about feminism and women's culture that i am reminding myself to write about later. i like that q and i can agree on a lot of issues that most people seem awefully mislead about.
i suppose i should go off and start workingworkingworking. whoot.
hope everybody's well and happy and getting their work done.
*bisou*.
-i