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[gingercowgirl]

from free spirited to overwhelmed
from poverty to comfort

sacrifice,
has shown itself

responsibility has become a word
so misconstrued
it's hard to tell its rightful colour

my palette is no longer a myriad of colours
seeping into one another
hues bleeding of their own content

rather, everything is compartmentalized
and when i look at the painting of my life,
these days all i see are numbers and quadrants.

and internally,
i feel proud but shredded
of all that i've come to organize.