vent
I have a hard time hanging out with the people I hung out with today. I want to hang out with them, but they have more conservative/different views than I do on lots of stuff. Perhaps it's not true, but I feel judged. I also feel like they can't accept my real self. I am a unique/weird person. The more I am beginning to love life and be at peace and joy during my day, I feel like I can't express it to them, because when I do, I get laughed at and when I let my body enjoy the energy by jumping, flinging my arms out, touching a tree, breathing deeply, watching the sky... I feel like I am looked at like I have the plague..... god damn social conformatism... and on the god subject, I don't want to find Jesus Christ as my savior, I enjoy my spiritual path that I'm on. I respect your beliefs, please respect mine.
I feel like I am constantly having to defend myself and what I think and believe. Or what my acquaintances feel and believe. I'm okay hanging out with each of you one-on-one, but together, I feel like I'm ganged up on.
I know I can't change how you respond to things. I can only change my reaction. I think that may require that I just don't seek hanging out with you. Otherwise, I get upset for not being able to be myself.
Friends should love you for who you are, not who they want you to be.
Also, I really want to say--how can you judge my love life when yours is nonexistent? But that would be mean...
VENTTTT all of this out of me.... I don't want these negative feelings anymore.
I feel like I am constantly having to defend myself and what I think and believe. Or what my acquaintances feel and believe. I'm okay hanging out with each of you one-on-one, but together, I feel like I'm ganged up on.
I know I can't change how you respond to things. I can only change my reaction. I think that may require that I just don't seek hanging out with you. Otherwise, I get upset for not being able to be myself.
Friends should love you for who you are, not who they want you to be.
Also, I really want to say--how can you judge my love life when yours is nonexistent? But that would be mean...
VENTTTT all of this out of me.... I don't want these negative feelings anymore.