employee of the month
So they did notice.
For months, I've been barely existing in this job (whereas I used to thrive before). I've been distracted, bored, unhappy and unfulfilled. I knew there was something wrong about how I was going through with my job, since I've always been an achiever and a go-getter, but it never really crossed my mind that my output would reflect my depression.
Weird line of thinking right? But apparently, my output has been compromised. Not only that, but my bosses have noticed that their star employee has been underperforming.
So they talked to me yesterday. Well, the news editor did. Nothing really dramatic or anything, just a fatherly reminder to do better and stay focused.
There's really a myriad of reasons why I'm not as excited to work here as before. It would be so easy to just enumerate those reasons and blame them for my lapse, but I won't. What I have resolved to do is to rise above my circumstances and excel in whatever situation I am placed in, depressing or no.
That's going to be the real test of my character, I think. Of course a job should be enjoyable, ideally. But excelling in a job that makes you laugh and smile and is a bed of roses is nothing compared to mastering a task that is fraught with challenges, trials and troubles. It's like loving the loveable: Even pagans do it. Loving the totally and repulsively unloveable, on the other hand, now that's Love.
Anyway, so I therefore resolve to work as diligently I can in this job that has me sighing and shaking my head most of the time. This is character building stuff, and I'm here for a purpose. If God takes me someplace else (like abroad for my scholarship), then great! But I will take pride in not having just "existed", ever, but always having thrived.
Big words. I hope I keep this resolve.
For months, I've been barely existing in this job (whereas I used to thrive before). I've been distracted, bored, unhappy and unfulfilled. I knew there was something wrong about how I was going through with my job, since I've always been an achiever and a go-getter, but it never really crossed my mind that my output would reflect my depression.
Weird line of thinking right? But apparently, my output has been compromised. Not only that, but my bosses have noticed that their star employee has been underperforming.
So they talked to me yesterday. Well, the news editor did. Nothing really dramatic or anything, just a fatherly reminder to do better and stay focused.
There's really a myriad of reasons why I'm not as excited to work here as before. It would be so easy to just enumerate those reasons and blame them for my lapse, but I won't. What I have resolved to do is to rise above my circumstances and excel in whatever situation I am placed in, depressing or no.
That's going to be the real test of my character, I think. Of course a job should be enjoyable, ideally. But excelling in a job that makes you laugh and smile and is a bed of roses is nothing compared to mastering a task that is fraught with challenges, trials and troubles. It's like loving the loveable: Even pagans do it. Loving the totally and repulsively unloveable, on the other hand, now that's Love.
Anyway, so I therefore resolve to work as diligently I can in this job that has me sighing and shaking my head most of the time. This is character building stuff, and I'm here for a purpose. If God takes me someplace else (like abroad for my scholarship), then great! But I will take pride in not having just "existed", ever, but always having thrived.
Big words. I hope I keep this resolve.