New Year's Resolutions
New Year's Resolutions ... something of a tradition in my family. It's something we all decided to do every year, even after we all moved out of home. It was kind of a fun thing to do, really, especially when we kept it. Our mother always tells us we have to make it simple so we can do it.
I suppose in many way's it is a good idea. I mean, it sort of makes you keep promises and that kind of thing, but when you can't do it you suddenly realise a whole lot of depressing things. These aren't good to suddenly realise in the beginning of a new year. Really, they aren't. This happened to me in Febuary of this year. It really wasn't good. It was rather depressing. Members of my family told me that I should have kept it simple. It was simple! How is "pleasing my boss every day" not simple? Okay, there was more to it than that ...
The entire thing was "This year I am definately going to exceed Toby's expectations of me. I am going to make him pleased with the work I do, and I am, under no circumstances going to feel bad when he's had a bad day."
About a week later I came home from work and burst into tears because Toby had a fight with CJ. Note that it wasn't me who had a fight with anyone. It was my boss. The next day I finished nothing Toby had asked me to do. He was so very pissed off at me. I was pissed off at myself. It was simple! Obviously Toby has a hard exterior, but he isn't a total monster! He didn't know about my new years resolution! It was my fault that I felt upset because he was in such a bad mood that day, so therefore it was me - I had failed the simple resolution I'd set for myself. And it was simple, it really and truly was.
This year I can't give up chocolate or expensive shoes or anything like that, I can't change myself ... I mean, it's not - it shouldn't be a New Years Resolution, and it doesn't have to be something you think of at new years. I figure if I ever want to do anything, I'll do it the day I think of it. I'm just going to do this day by day. No more rediculous New Years Resolutions while I spend the year telling myself "No, Ginger! No! Do not do that! Do not touch that! That is bad!" and when I do touch that or do do that, then I've failed. I don't want to feel as if I've failed. It shouldn't be that way. So no, NO New Years Resolutions this year. Just taking it day by day. Not year by year.
~Ginger
I suppose in many way's it is a good idea. I mean, it sort of makes you keep promises and that kind of thing, but when you can't do it you suddenly realise a whole lot of depressing things. These aren't good to suddenly realise in the beginning of a new year. Really, they aren't. This happened to me in Febuary of this year. It really wasn't good. It was rather depressing. Members of my family told me that I should have kept it simple. It was simple! How is "pleasing my boss every day" not simple? Okay, there was more to it than that ...
The entire thing was "This year I am definately going to exceed Toby's expectations of me. I am going to make him pleased with the work I do, and I am, under no circumstances going to feel bad when he's had a bad day."
About a week later I came home from work and burst into tears because Toby had a fight with CJ. Note that it wasn't me who had a fight with anyone. It was my boss. The next day I finished nothing Toby had asked me to do. He was so very pissed off at me. I was pissed off at myself. It was simple! Obviously Toby has a hard exterior, but he isn't a total monster! He didn't know about my new years resolution! It was my fault that I felt upset because he was in such a bad mood that day, so therefore it was me - I had failed the simple resolution I'd set for myself. And it was simple, it really and truly was.
This year I can't give up chocolate or expensive shoes or anything like that, I can't change myself ... I mean, it's not - it shouldn't be a New Years Resolution, and it doesn't have to be something you think of at new years. I figure if I ever want to do anything, I'll do it the day I think of it. I'm just going to do this day by day. No more rediculous New Years Resolutions while I spend the year telling myself "No, Ginger! No! Do not do that! Do not touch that! That is bad!" and when I do touch that or do do that, then I've failed. I don't want to feel as if I've failed. It shouldn't be that way. So no, NO New Years Resolutions this year. Just taking it day by day. Not year by year.
~Ginger