Honey I'm hone!!!!
Wow...so my last entry was in April. And it wasn't even a real life update. Holy shit. Soooooo much has been happening since last April.
But the thing I really wanted to say is that...I'm happy. Like really happy with my life. And I haven't been that way for a few years. I never would have admitted it to myself at the time, but I was depressed, ever since Nick and I broke up 3 years ago. But a few months ago, I woke up one day, and I just felt better. All of sudden. I never really believed people when they said that one day you wake up and everything's ok again. But it's true, it happened to me.
I'm happy with school, I didn't end up failing any classes last semester, the lowest grade I got was a C, so I was stoked about that. I love the program I'm doing and I'm 100% sure this is what I want to do with my life. I'm even considering finishing the credits and getting my bachelor's at some point so I can apply to law school. But, that might be a few years down the track. Lol. But I love the law, I get it, my brain works that way, and I love feeling like I'm good at something again.
Work is good. I mean, I will never ever love retail, but I don't dread going to work everyday like I used to at Barnes and Noble. I for the most part like the people I work with, and I'm once again, good at my job. A few months ago I was "promoted" to working at guest services. There isn't a raise involved (sadly), but the managers only put the people they trust in "the box". Lol. And a lot of the managers were promoted up through working at guest services, and my friend Cassie, who's younger than me was just promoted to Customer Service Lead, which is the lowest rung of the managers. So I sort of feel like I'm being put on the promotion track within JoAnns. Which is a nice feeling.
And, I've finally got over my guy issues, and I'm being proactive in trying to meet my Mr. Right. I deserve to be loved and happy, and I really want that now. I want to be married by the time I'm 30, and I now think I will. I know someone's out there for me. So, I signed up on Eharmony. And I've been talking to this guy Garry, he's my age, and he seems nice. He wants the same things I do in the future, and that's refreshing, as I'll the guys I've dated have had Peter Pan syndrome and never want to grow up. Anyways, we're to the "texting" stage, the next stage will be working up the nerve to call one another, and then I assume the first meeting after that, but I don't want to rush anything. But he has potential. So I'm feeling excited/hopeful. :) It's nice to know not all guys my age aren't complete dropkicks. Lol. And oh, plus, he's not born in June!! Amazing, I know. Lmao.
So yeah, I just feel really happy and content with my life. I'm not freaking out about the future, I'm just trying to take it one day at a time with no stress. So far so good.
But the thing I really wanted to say is that...I'm happy. Like really happy with my life. And I haven't been that way for a few years. I never would have admitted it to myself at the time, but I was depressed, ever since Nick and I broke up 3 years ago. But a few months ago, I woke up one day, and I just felt better. All of sudden. I never really believed people when they said that one day you wake up and everything's ok again. But it's true, it happened to me.
I'm happy with school, I didn't end up failing any classes last semester, the lowest grade I got was a C, so I was stoked about that. I love the program I'm doing and I'm 100% sure this is what I want to do with my life. I'm even considering finishing the credits and getting my bachelor's at some point so I can apply to law school. But, that might be a few years down the track. Lol. But I love the law, I get it, my brain works that way, and I love feeling like I'm good at something again.
Work is good. I mean, I will never ever love retail, but I don't dread going to work everyday like I used to at Barnes and Noble. I for the most part like the people I work with, and I'm once again, good at my job. A few months ago I was "promoted" to working at guest services. There isn't a raise involved (sadly), but the managers only put the people they trust in "the box". Lol. And a lot of the managers were promoted up through working at guest services, and my friend Cassie, who's younger than me was just promoted to Customer Service Lead, which is the lowest rung of the managers. So I sort of feel like I'm being put on the promotion track within JoAnns. Which is a nice feeling.
And, I've finally got over my guy issues, and I'm being proactive in trying to meet my Mr. Right. I deserve to be loved and happy, and I really want that now. I want to be married by the time I'm 30, and I now think I will. I know someone's out there for me. So, I signed up on Eharmony. And I've been talking to this guy Garry, he's my age, and he seems nice. He wants the same things I do in the future, and that's refreshing, as I'll the guys I've dated have had Peter Pan syndrome and never want to grow up. Anyways, we're to the "texting" stage, the next stage will be working up the nerve to call one another, and then I assume the first meeting after that, but I don't want to rush anything. But he has potential. So I'm feeling excited/hopeful. :) It's nice to know not all guys my age aren't complete dropkicks. Lol. And oh, plus, he's not born in June!! Amazing, I know. Lmao.
So yeah, I just feel really happy and content with my life. I'm not freaking out about the future, I'm just trying to take it one day at a time with no stress. So far so good.