This zombie post wants to eat your brains.
Well, I've written and re-written this post in my head about a million times over the past few weeks, and I still haven't figured out how to make it any less awkward. So, I shall be swift and to the point.
I know not many of you probably care what's going on with me anymore, and really, I'm cool with that - I've disappeared enough times to've earned your disregard. But I want to offer some small explanation for myself, I guess.
Basically, I went through a really shit break-up after my ex had more or less spent all my money and left me broke. I gave up internet in favor of working constantly and trying to rebuild my financial security, and in the meantime, I met the guy I've spent the last 2 years with and who is pretty much the best thing ever. Late last year, I tried starting up a new LJ, because I missed being part of the HP community and, well.. having friends, really, but I ended up deleting it because it wasn't the same, and I was trying to be someone I wasn't just to get back what I once had.
I realize I can't ever have what I once did, which was this - a wonderful group of friends who meant worlds to me, even though I did a shit job of returning the favor. And I wanted you lot to know just what you did mean to me, and how lonely I am without you all.
And on that note, I do have a new journal. It's
third_times (yes, as in 'third time's the charm'). It's a place where I'm being completely and utterly true to myself, and as of yet, I don't have any friends. So, if any of you are still interested - and again, I won't at all fault anyone who wants nothing to do with me - I'd love to reunite with you. And this time, I will promise no long disappearances, and I'm going to try my best not to be a flaky friend ever again.
I've disabled comments, as this is the last time I'll likely visit this journal. Hopefully I'll be talking to some of you soon, and for those of you walking away, then this is my very fond good-bye.