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So I just came home from Jeff's and my mom is still awake sittin in her chair...odd? very much so...I think it's because she can't sleep due to some problems that have been going on in my house lately...my dad is doing the same thing and I'm beginning to do the same thing because I can't stop thinking about it/wanting to freak the fuck out and/or scream at the phone (I have my reasons) .... damn bill collectors .... they're wanting to represses (sp?) aka take away the house within a few months if we don't come up with the money we owe them...including our bank which we've been in debt now for over a year hardcore-like...and our phone company which we owe over $3,000 dollars too (which once again we do not have) and loans/mortages that we still also owe money too...etc...we don't even have any goceries in the house because we can't afford them...we've been going out and going to wendys for the dollar menu shit and what not for dinner...it's fucking lame as hell and I feel so god damned useless and powerless...I want to be able to help my parents for once in my life instead of always being the dysfunctional daughter with no job and going to an alternative school and still being behind in shit with credits, ugh! I've never been able to help them much and I want to so bad but I can't...I don't know how...I bought a lottery ticket tonight hoping I would win atleast 10 or 20 bucks so I could give it to them for starters...but I lost like always so fuck lotteries...fuck them up their ass...my mom has been crying and they're both drinking a lot more and still going to the bar and having their friends and bartender friends give them free drinks and what not...these people wanting money keep calling non stop harrassing us and threathing us that if we don't pay that we're gonna lose power/water/phone lines/etc...and I wanna hurt them all with a passion to leave us alone so we can atleast think about our choices...but Noooooo of course not, they insist to make my mother cry and actually cry infront of me and tell me not to tell dad things cause my dad can't handle this shit and my mom doesn't want to push him over the edge cause he'll freak the hell out...I feel a little better now but I'm still fucking upset....I haven't really talked about this to anyone, I've talked to Jeff about it a little bit but I didn't wanna make him sad either...I've been in a shitty mood for a while now and trying to hide it and act happy is getting harder and harder by the day knowing that sooner or later I might not have this house anymore and then I have no idea where I would go, same goes for my mom, dad, doggy and my precious kitty... :( I wish I could zap a million dollars in my hands right now...solve my problem and my family can be happy for once ...I don't remember the last time my mom or dad was truly happy about living...soooo many reasons...
soooo....on a happier note? eh? rented Saved tonight and watched it with Jeff ...has Mandy Moore and what not in it, she's all this jesus lover freak...it was a cute, funny, and kind of annoying movie but shmeh...it was only annoying cause it was kinda long for the most part and I heard the name Jesus and God too damn much...I'm okay with God and all that...I just don't go to Church or preach my happy ass off about it.
Earlier Jeff, Christa, Sara and I went to Fat Daves like usual...had to go pick up Sara at her house, she's all hella burnt red from tanning today...told her not to go in for 15 minutes and what did she do? Went in for 15 minutes...oh well...
Picked up Puff today at Job Corp...he annoyed the fuck out of me once again and he knows I'm pissed off at him so I don't give a shit, he was in the wrong once more...Christa and I have been bitching about him for the past 4 weeks now cause of how much of a dumbass he is beginning to get...Jeff even bitches about him and he's his best friend so ha! I'm not the only one.
Last night was fun...I gave Jeff my black lights and what not and I took some highlighters and drew all over him and he drew all over me, fun fun ...hehehe...I really like him, he's good people. he's been feeding me lately cause we have no food so I appreicate that from him...
tomorrow he's coming over and joy...don't know quite what we're doing yet but we usually always come up with something, I wouldn't mind him lounging around in my room with me ...I like lounging.
I'm typed too much...I'm gonna stop now.
soooo....on a happier note? eh? rented Saved tonight and watched it with Jeff ...has Mandy Moore and what not in it, she's all this jesus lover freak...it was a cute, funny, and kind of annoying movie but shmeh...it was only annoying cause it was kinda long for the most part and I heard the name Jesus and God too damn much...I'm okay with God and all that...I just don't go to Church or preach my happy ass off about it.
Earlier Jeff, Christa, Sara and I went to Fat Daves like usual...had to go pick up Sara at her house, she's all hella burnt red from tanning today...told her not to go in for 15 minutes and what did she do? Went in for 15 minutes...oh well...
Picked up Puff today at Job Corp...he annoyed the fuck out of me once again and he knows I'm pissed off at him so I don't give a shit, he was in the wrong once more...Christa and I have been bitching about him for the past 4 weeks now cause of how much of a dumbass he is beginning to get...Jeff even bitches about him and he's his best friend so ha! I'm not the only one.
Last night was fun...I gave Jeff my black lights and what not and I took some highlighters and drew all over him and he drew all over me, fun fun ...hehehe...I really like him, he's good people. he's been feeding me lately cause we have no food so I appreicate that from him...
tomorrow he's coming over and joy...don't know quite what we're doing yet but we usually always come up with something, I wouldn't mind him lounging around in my room with me ...I like lounging.
I'm typed too much...I'm gonna stop now.