FUCK COLLEGE. SERIOUSLY. D:
I was meaning to complain in here yesterday, but I got home from the beach late and I needed to get to bed at a decent hour for once so it never happened. :[
Today I had to go take my placement test at my college. I hated the whole expierence. First of all, as stated before, the thought of college makes me feel siiiick. Dx I don't like realizing that I'm growing up. I still feel like a kid, and even though I know how to be mature and all I hate the whole thing. :/ The idea of going into the real world just terrifies me. And plus when I'm walking around the college and I see the other incoming freshman I can't help but to notice how YOUNG I look compared to all of them. Dx I look 12!! I look like I'm ready for the 6th grade!! I feel like I don't belong. :[ I guess I just hate all of this because I hate change so much... I was so nice and comfortable in my high school. I had the routine down, the school, some of the teachers, people would look familar to me... I HATE having to start over. D: Eventually I know I'll get used to Suffolk too but it'll take some getting used to. Right now I just don't like it. D<
The test was okaaay. I dunno, it took me a half hour I think? It had a reading section, a math section, and a seperate math section with just algebra. The reading part was a peice of cake. I'm good with reading comprehension and the works and that was basically the whole section. It had a paragraph and then you had to choose a multiple choice answer about what the paragraph was about. So that was simple... Then the other part of the reading had two sentences and you'd have to answer with multiple choice with what relationship the second sentence had with the first. That was easy too. I must've did well because when I had to go to the guidence counselor after the test she said that I'd need to take an English class because it was required, but I wouldn't have to take any reading classes. :] But the math part of the test? HAH. Yeaaaah, I've been to summer school for math three times in my life and in the 8th grade when we took education placement tests I had a third grade math level. SO YEAH, I'M NOT THE BEST MATH PERSON. ALL I COULD DO IS COUNT. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO FUCKING MULTIPLY WITHOUT A CALCULATOR. D: We weren't allowed to use a calculator on the test. Instead, an automatic calculator on the computer would pop up on certain questions. The problem with that, though, WAS IT ONLY CAME UP WHEN YOU REALLY DIDN'T NEED IT OR COULDN'T USE IT!! Seriously, it would be a factorial problem (I THINK that's what they're called, at least...SEE, I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER!) with only letters and the calculator button would pop up. 'CAUSE YEAH, THAT'S REALLY GONNA HELP ME. The regular math part I thought was decent because the answers I was getting were at least a choice in the multiple choice...but I'm pretty sure I had the worst possible answer and that's why they were choices. xD;;; THE ALEGBRA PART OF THE TEST WAS A FUCKING JOKE. SERIOUSLY. IT WAS SO HORRIBLE FOR ME THAT I REALLY ALMOST STARTED LAUGHING AT HOW AWFUL IT WAS. I LOOKED AT THE QUESTIONS AND LITERALLY SAID "WTF IS THAT!? LOLWUT?!" I'm SO bad at math, it's insaaane. I just don't get it. Dx And plus I didn't take math my senior year so I'm pretty rusty with it anyway. >_>; I'm pretty sure that I did so horrible on the math part that they didn't even want me to take Math Lab. My guidence counselor said that I needed to take something like a "assisted math class". I don't remember her words exactly, it was something along those line, those. SPECIAL-ED HERE I COME. I'M PRETTY SURE THAT'S WHERE SHE'S PUTTING ME. 8D
Then she gives me the classes I need to take and sends me off to the computer lab where I'm supposed to make my own schedule with help from a student. OF COURSE I end up with the student who hates everyone and is a total bitch and doesn't even want to be there. She tells me briefly what to do and then says "you got it, right?" and walks away to go flirt with one of the guy's or some shit. I'M TOO SOCIALLY AWKWARD TO BE ABLE TO DO THINGS LIKE THAT ON MY OWN. I NEED SOMEONE HELPFUL. DDD< That's exactly how my "big sister" was in 9th grade in SJB! D< I always get the bitchessss!! All of the classes were filled up except for World History and this other class that I already forgot the name of and I have no idea what the class is eeven when I read the summary. ._.; I put them down, went to register them, and then they tell me that the computer lied and the World History class WAS filled. So I got that random class thing for 9:00-11:15 every Wenesday. ONE CLASS IN COLLEGE. I AM WELL ON MY WAY TO BE SUCCESSFUL! -_-; I'm gonna have to stay for an extra semester to actually get all of my credits... Which I don't really care about because I'm in no hurry to get out of college... I don't even know what I want to do which is why I'm going to a community college right now in the first place. Friday is the last payment day so anyone who doesn't pay by midnight on Friday gets dropped out of their classes. They told me to go on the internet at midnight to see if any of the classes opened up and said that I could register for them and pay for them if they did. So we're gonna try...I'd like to be a little less pathetic and take more than one class. xD; Seriously. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCKING CLASS IS. D: WHAT SUBJECT IS THAT!?
Another thing that I hated was that everyone was so fucking RUDE and unhelpful! I'm bad with directions and I've only been around this school once anyway. So of course I'd need to ask someone that works there where the fuck I'm supposed to go and they're so vague and kept pointing me to the wrong direction. D< Then the students are so rude too!!! I went into one of the rooms, looked at a fucking GROUP OF STUDENTS THAT JUST TOOK THE FUCKING TEST WITH ME, and said "oh hai is this where we're supposed to go after the test?" and they just STARE at me like I'm talking to myself and have 4 heads or something. I even said "hello?" To show that I WAS talking to them and STILL! No answer! They just stare!! Fucking retards. The least you could do is answer. D< I hate rude people so much. I'm hating everything about Suffolk Community so far.
AND I JUST GOT A @REPLY ON TWITTER FROM SOME BENCH AND SHE SAID "YOU KNOW ADAM LAMBERT'S GAY, RIGHT?" EXCUSE ME!? OF COURSE I FUCKING KNOW HE'S GAY. I KNEW HE WAS GAY THE SECOND I SAW HIS PRETTY HOMOSEXUAL FACE. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN!? I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY SHIT LIKE THAT. WHO THE FUCK CARES WHAT HIS SEXUAL PREFERENCE IS!? I LOVE HIM NO MATTER WHAT, HE'S AMAZING; I DON'T CARE IF HE WANTS TO FUCK GIRLS, BOYS, SHEEP, BABIES, WHATEVER. AND PLUS HIM BEING GAY HELPS MY KRADAM FANFICTION ANYWAY. RAAAAAGE!! DDD<
On a lighter note the American Idol Live Tour concert is in 6 days!!! AND my Adam Lambert t-shirt came in the mail today. <3 It's ADORABLE. :3 It's black, and says "I heart Glambert" on it~ <3 "Glambert" is half in green so when I wear it I'll be half-supporting Kris with it too. Gaaah, I'm so excitedddd. :D :D :D
Today I had to go take my placement test at my college. I hated the whole expierence. First of all, as stated before, the thought of college makes me feel siiiick. Dx I don't like realizing that I'm growing up. I still feel like a kid, and even though I know how to be mature and all I hate the whole thing. :/ The idea of going into the real world just terrifies me. And plus when I'm walking around the college and I see the other incoming freshman I can't help but to notice how YOUNG I look compared to all of them. Dx I look 12!! I look like I'm ready for the 6th grade!! I feel like I don't belong. :[ I guess I just hate all of this because I hate change so much... I was so nice and comfortable in my high school. I had the routine down, the school, some of the teachers, people would look familar to me... I HATE having to start over. D: Eventually I know I'll get used to Suffolk too but it'll take some getting used to. Right now I just don't like it. D<
The test was okaaay. I dunno, it took me a half hour I think? It had a reading section, a math section, and a seperate math section with just algebra. The reading part was a peice of cake. I'm good with reading comprehension and the works and that was basically the whole section. It had a paragraph and then you had to choose a multiple choice answer about what the paragraph was about. So that was simple... Then the other part of the reading had two sentences and you'd have to answer with multiple choice with what relationship the second sentence had with the first. That was easy too. I must've did well because when I had to go to the guidence counselor after the test she said that I'd need to take an English class because it was required, but I wouldn't have to take any reading classes. :] But the math part of the test? HAH. Yeaaaah, I've been to summer school for math three times in my life and in the 8th grade when we took education placement tests I had a third grade math level. SO YEAH, I'M NOT THE BEST MATH PERSON. ALL I COULD DO IS COUNT. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO FUCKING MULTIPLY WITHOUT A CALCULATOR. D: We weren't allowed to use a calculator on the test. Instead, an automatic calculator on the computer would pop up on certain questions. The problem with that, though, WAS IT ONLY CAME UP WHEN YOU REALLY DIDN'T NEED IT OR COULDN'T USE IT!! Seriously, it would be a factorial problem (I THINK that's what they're called, at least...SEE, I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER!) with only letters and the calculator button would pop up. 'CAUSE YEAH, THAT'S REALLY GONNA HELP ME. The regular math part I thought was decent because the answers I was getting were at least a choice in the multiple choice...but I'm pretty sure I had the worst possible answer and that's why they were choices. xD;;; THE ALEGBRA PART OF THE TEST WAS A FUCKING JOKE. SERIOUSLY. IT WAS SO HORRIBLE FOR ME THAT I REALLY ALMOST STARTED LAUGHING AT HOW AWFUL IT WAS. I LOOKED AT THE QUESTIONS AND LITERALLY SAID "WTF IS THAT!? LOLWUT?!" I'm SO bad at math, it's insaaane. I just don't get it. Dx And plus I didn't take math my senior year so I'm pretty rusty with it anyway. >_>; I'm pretty sure that I did so horrible on the math part that they didn't even want me to take Math Lab. My guidence counselor said that I needed to take something like a "assisted math class". I don't remember her words exactly, it was something along those line, those. SPECIAL-ED HERE I COME. I'M PRETTY SURE THAT'S WHERE SHE'S PUTTING ME. 8D
Then she gives me the classes I need to take and sends me off to the computer lab where I'm supposed to make my own schedule with help from a student. OF COURSE I end up with the student who hates everyone and is a total bitch and doesn't even want to be there. She tells me briefly what to do and then says "you got it, right?" and walks away to go flirt with one of the guy's or some shit. I'M TOO SOCIALLY AWKWARD TO BE ABLE TO DO THINGS LIKE THAT ON MY OWN. I NEED SOMEONE HELPFUL. DDD< That's exactly how my "big sister" was in 9th grade in SJB! D< I always get the bitchessss!! All of the classes were filled up except for World History and this other class that I already forgot the name of and I have no idea what the class is eeven when I read the summary. ._.; I put them down, went to register them, and then they tell me that the computer lied and the World History class WAS filled. So I got that random class thing for 9:00-11:15 every Wenesday. ONE CLASS IN COLLEGE. I AM WELL ON MY WAY TO BE SUCCESSFUL! -_-; I'm gonna have to stay for an extra semester to actually get all of my credits... Which I don't really care about because I'm in no hurry to get out of college... I don't even know what I want to do which is why I'm going to a community college right now in the first place. Friday is the last payment day so anyone who doesn't pay by midnight on Friday gets dropped out of their classes. They told me to go on the internet at midnight to see if any of the classes opened up and said that I could register for them and pay for them if they did. So we're gonna try...I'd like to be a little less pathetic and take more than one class. xD; Seriously. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCKING CLASS IS. D: WHAT SUBJECT IS THAT!?
Another thing that I hated was that everyone was so fucking RUDE and unhelpful! I'm bad with directions and I've only been around this school once anyway. So of course I'd need to ask someone that works there where the fuck I'm supposed to go and they're so vague and kept pointing me to the wrong direction. D< Then the students are so rude too!!! I went into one of the rooms, looked at a fucking GROUP OF STUDENTS THAT JUST TOOK THE FUCKING TEST WITH ME, and said "oh hai is this where we're supposed to go after the test?" and they just STARE at me like I'm talking to myself and have 4 heads or something. I even said "hello?" To show that I WAS talking to them and STILL! No answer! They just stare!! Fucking retards. The least you could do is answer. D< I hate rude people so much. I'm hating everything about Suffolk Community so far.
AND I JUST GOT A @REPLY ON TWITTER FROM SOME BENCH AND SHE SAID "YOU KNOW ADAM LAMBERT'S GAY, RIGHT?" EXCUSE ME!? OF COURSE I FUCKING KNOW HE'S GAY. I KNEW HE WAS GAY THE SECOND I SAW HIS PRETTY HOMOSEXUAL FACE. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN!? I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY SHIT LIKE THAT. WHO THE FUCK CARES WHAT HIS SEXUAL PREFERENCE IS!? I LOVE HIM NO MATTER WHAT, HE'S AMAZING; I DON'T CARE IF HE WANTS TO FUCK GIRLS, BOYS, SHEEP, BABIES, WHATEVER. AND PLUS HIM BEING GAY HELPS MY KRADAM FANFICTION ANYWAY. RAAAAAGE!! DDD<
On a lighter note the American Idol Live Tour concert is in 6 days!!! AND my Adam Lambert t-shirt came in the mail today. <3 It's ADORABLE. :3 It's black, and says "I heart Glambert" on it~ <3 "Glambert" is half in green so when I wear it I'll be half-supporting Kris with it too. Gaaah, I'm so excitedddd. :D :D :D