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well today was nice. i saw jackie becasue she skipped school to come chill..its was illmatic. we, if you read my last entry, you nkow that tim cheated on me while we were going out. i discussed this issue with tims best friend drew (they are like brothers). drew said that he knew befor and didnt tell me so he wouldnt be the one to hurt me. i was upset but i can understand his view, i still would have liked to know sooner. so drew was like...'im tims wing man, hs my brother, but im tierd of him doing stupid shit. it was realyl dick of him what he did and how he told you'. drew said that he was going to talk to tim. i warned him that tim was going to blame me, but he said that he would anyway. so 6th period i asked drew what he said becasue when tim saw me he went 'i have to speak with you' (in a not nice voice). drew told me that when he saw tim and tim went to say hi, drew responded with 'im sick of your shit' and walked right on into his class room and ignored him the next period. well of course, tim blamed me. he stopped me in the hallway after school and told me to 'stop dragging drew into things. that drew and him are just fine.' i said that drew is my friend and i tell him how i feel becasue he understands. i kept trying to walk away, but he kept stepping in front of me. well, i cant remeber the whole conversation, but what i got outa of it was that tim said that he never loved me, that everything was a lie, and that he enjoys lieing when he does not get in trouble. he said that befor me he never got into any trouble...i have no idea what the hell he ment by that. what trouble may i ask? maybe trouble with other people becasue of what a dick he is being. so he said that the dictionary defenition of love is have aboundant feelings for someone other than yourself. he said that he felt that, but not the love that i think of. you know, the true love. the feeling that cant be put into words perfectly. he said that he has never experianced that love befor and he doesnt even know what that kind of love is. that i didnt know either. he was practically laughing in my face. he also told me of how he enjoys lieing..that it is better than getting in trouble. he was bragging to me at what a good liar he is. give me a break! i said 'it looks like your amused by this. i love how causeing me pain amuses you' and he didnt answer. finally we were interupted by the drama club needing us for warm ups. we never really finished our conversation. thats too damn bad.