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There are so many feelings and thoughts that have crossed my mind these past few weeks. I feel like I'm busting at the seems with something, but I just can't quite put my finger on it strong enough to let it pop and ooze. All I know is that I need to get out of here. Everyday is the same ole' shit and I'm sure all of you have felt this way at some point in your life. It's not that I hate America, but then again maybe I do, but I just feel like the "truth" I'm setting out for doesn't exist within these walls of this nation, and I feel like I need a fresh perspective with some new eyes to really be able to grasp this truth that I am seeking. I want to feel completely thrown out of my comfort zone, because this comfort that I'm rolling around in isn't very comfortable at all, its filled to the brim with lies, exploitation, and filth. I feel that once we get too comfortable as an individual, that is when the trouble sets in. We become one-sided and feel that this way is the best way and quite frankly I'm so fucking sick and tired of being told that I live in the best nation in the entire fucking universe because I believe we are far from that. We've become so comfortable on depending on other countries that with a blink of an eye our comfortable little glass bubble could be shattered at any moment. We are addicted to oil, we exploit others in the name of labels, we consume poisons that are disguised as 'food', and we've all become so recycled in the thoughts of others that we cannot create our own thought for ourselves. Why is it that we are the ONLY country on the planet that shouts on the rooftops and shoves in everyone's face that we are the best place in the entire planet, and everyone else would crumble if it wasn't for us??? Do we not realize that if it wasn't for every other country that we've raped of natural resources and manual labor that we'd be in the opposite position?? Why is it that when I talk to any older generation they do not realize that our civil freedoms and rights came with the oppression and killing of others? My freedom does not come in violent forms, and I'm sick of people telling me that my freedom was fought for and that others died for it. Does this mean that I am free since my freedom was already fought for and 'won' without my own approval? How can my own personal freedom already be fought and won if I had no say so in the whole process of it??
There are many arguments to this. Yes, I do understand the fact that I have more civil rights because I am a citizen of the United States, and I do understand that there are far more people in this world who are oppressed in far more ways than I. I do realize that I have been given the opportunity of living in the 'free' world, and that I have had more opportunities allotted to me than others, but the other thing that we must realize is that there was no choice involved in that. It just happened. I was born to two citizens of the United States, I had no say so in the matter, and while I am taking advantages of the opportunities granted to me, I also feel that I should have a say in the ways that they control my life.
I know my parents just want whats best for me, but whats best for me should be dictated by me, myself, and I. I am thankful for the expansion that my mind and heart have experienced these past 3 years, and I would not be the person that I am today if it wasn't for it. I've learned a lot here in college, and I'm learning more everyday, but this learning that I'm doing, is it really helping me reach my goals of my own personal truth and freedom? This I do not know.
What I always wondered, what is taught to German high-school/college-level students when they learn about the Holocaust? I mean of course they have to know about what went down, but at some point is it biased because they are from Germany? I believe so. Just as all the history that I've learned about the USA is biased as well. I keep hearing that we are the best of the best fucking better than everyone bullshit, but then I start actually realizing the shit that we are doing to others all in the name of democracy.
All I know is that we do not live in a democracy. We are far from it.
There are many arguments to this. Yes, I do understand the fact that I have more civil rights because I am a citizen of the United States, and I do understand that there are far more people in this world who are oppressed in far more ways than I. I do realize that I have been given the opportunity of living in the 'free' world, and that I have had more opportunities allotted to me than others, but the other thing that we must realize is that there was no choice involved in that. It just happened. I was born to two citizens of the United States, I had no say so in the matter, and while I am taking advantages of the opportunities granted to me, I also feel that I should have a say in the ways that they control my life.
I know my parents just want whats best for me, but whats best for me should be dictated by me, myself, and I. I am thankful for the expansion that my mind and heart have experienced these past 3 years, and I would not be the person that I am today if it wasn't for it. I've learned a lot here in college, and I'm learning more everyday, but this learning that I'm doing, is it really helping me reach my goals of my own personal truth and freedom? This I do not know.
What I always wondered, what is taught to German high-school/college-level students when they learn about the Holocaust? I mean of course they have to know about what went down, but at some point is it biased because they are from Germany? I believe so. Just as all the history that I've learned about the USA is biased as well. I keep hearing that we are the best of the best fucking better than everyone bullshit, but then I start actually realizing the shit that we are doing to others all in the name of democracy.
All I know is that we do not live in a democracy. We are far from it.