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Friday night. the moment i've been waiting for. though to be honest, it's a bit unusual for me to say this but i kinda can't believe that it's this day already. tonight marks an ephemeral freedom for us, at least for students. it'll be more than two weeks but i consider it fairly short. well i am so damn excited about holiday. no doubt. but it's very dissapointing that once we hit the school again, the end-time of school will be back to the damned normal. i sorta like the school's schedule time lately. it ended by noon. is it not great?
i'm beat right now because i've been taking my eyes straight to television and monitor and i hate the fact that my eyes wear out quite fastly. but i still want to spend my time in front of my monitor. i don't know. there is this something from friday night that keeps me awake even if nothing good really happens, or even if i've got maximum sleepiness and although i've got to wake up at 3 in morning tomorrow. i know i'm forcing myself but i can't help it. too bad.
by the way, my motivation has been severed partly. that's the worst. well, not entirely, but still. lately i find myself highly lazy to study though in the middle of it, worrying future. dude, i urgently need a jolt of motivation.
quite recently i've been taking my time learning photoshop and abandoning studying. that kinda scares me alright. that's why i really need to be motivated more. but at least i've understood photoshop more than before, but, you know, still need a damn good tutorial. working by myself toward it can be totally exhausting i must say. but all of my friends who are nearly pro with it acknowledged theirselves learning it by their own efforts and i must admit that i'm very well amused.
anyway, i've made a decision just about a minute ago. i'm going to use this holiday very wisely and carefully. like, hibernating, and balancing between playing and studying. needless to say, mid-semester examinations will be taking place right several days after holiday ends. oh Allah, make the time goes veeeryyy slow i beg you.
and, my bad, before i started writing this entry, i've planned already of what i'm going to write here but, just a moment ago, i forgot about it. such issue that fears me.
hey i'm surprised that it's still 10.55 PM. i thought it's already more than 11 or perhaps almost 12. in this current states of mine; sleepy, exhausted, and all, i've really got to hit the pillow, long pillow, bed, blanket, air conditioner, and dream. so yeah. until next post, guys. get a well rest and good friday night.