Here it is...
So my life is in a slow screwey state right now. I talked to Melz the day before we got outta school and I asked her what she thought about taking time off for school. She said it wasn't the right choice for her but for some it was the best. She did however put in the fact that if I decided to stay out no matter what I would regret it. Well I wished I truly understood how intelligent Mel was when she told me that. I decided to take time off, I mean I got accepted into many but decided I would work and try to get a car and other things. Well I know definitely that I am going spring 2007 but I swear I regret ever taking time off. I mean I dont mind the being behind and having to be in college longer I just hate looking at all of my old friend's lives and seeing how much they have grown and made new friends. I miss not having that "college experienced" life. I am always sulking these days because I made a huge mistake. Well I no longer have to worry about when I am going. I also think I was worrying about what people might say about my staying out of school for so long. I mean i only hung around smart kids, really smart kids and I was afraid someone might think I was so stupid for not going. I am greatful Melz understood me that day and I regret not listening to what she was saying a little bit more closely. Well I just wanted people to know one of the many things on my mind...