SLAP
yeah. so tonight was one HELL of a slap in the face. yeah, scratch that on the last entry when i said id be happy whether i got it or not. i lied. maybe i was overestimating myself. maybe i didnt do as well as i thought i did. all i know is that ive never felt so hurt. my hopes were higher than they had ever been about anything. i was almost sure that things were gonna work out the way i wanted them to. but they didnt. now i dont mean to be ungrateful for what i got, but i would understand it if everyone else who got what i didnt actually deserved it. im so crushed. SOO crushed. i feel terrible. im happy for the people who got what they deserved. good for them. but for the ones who ruined my chances, im so upset. i fuckin hate this.