powerless i stand

[gin_x_kerosene]

well the summers over and i can believe that its finally over. this has been the best summer ever, i loved every minute of it even when there were fights bc it only brought us closer together. i guess ive changed alot since the beginnig of the summer but im still they same guy for the most part. i still think about how it used to be so much more simpilar back at the beginning of the summer and i miss those days alot when everyone was happy but you know we cant go back to that so we have to make the best of what weve got and what weve got is the best. i couldnt ask for better friends and ive never had better friends.i still remeber when we used to hang out in my backyard. i still remember us singing along to our favorite bands not caring what was ahead of us or the problem we would soon encounter. we were just a couple of kids in their adolescencs enjoying music and hanging with our friends. the first time we hung out at my house may very well have been the best day of my life because i loved my friends and i was loved by them (but that was all shot to hell) from there so many problems occurred and we had to ditch our youthful innocence and care for the ones we loved and it made us stronger together. i remember our little trips to sweet hollow road/misery mountain we had lots of fun going throught the graveyard and walking down the dark streets it was so much fun being scared with your friends (even if it wasnt that scary) we never got to go down that cellar door in that hotel because we never made it back to that spot but i guess we can always do that some other time some other summer even. how could anyone forget our many nights spent at the broadway mall hahaha now thats tiring. that place was like our hang out, our get away, even our safe haven, since my house was gone. it was the place where we basically met everyone that we hang out with now so thats where it all started. we always got in trouble there and the security guards hated us we got kicked off the property thrown out of the mall and almost arrested haha but ive spent the greates moments of my summer there. i remember band practice which was always fun, it was always our way to get together and just have some fun recently the bands become a little bit more serious even if they havent practiced in awhile hahah. the A room was def the best because they got the most done and we had so much fun thinking we were such big shots for actually practicing at a recording studio. i remember the countless shows that we went to, which was so much fun. we got to see our favorite bands together with our favorite friends. i remeber the shows from moneen/northstar (everyone remembers that right haha) to the recent hipv. inbetween we saw bno which was great and fall out boy. i loved that show and i loved watching my favorite band with my friends, i loved crowd surfing and jumping on the stage and singing at the top of my lungs and getting smashed up against the stage and than hurting for days later. we also went to warped tour which could also be the best day of my life. we saw so many of our favorit bands and saw so many of our friends there it was a great time and ill never forget it ,it was the first time i ever lost my voice after a show haha.

well the summer was amazing and we gained alot of great friends while also losing several for various reasons. i love all my friends. i will miss this summer it will never be the same but we'll make it the best we can. well now the summer is over and all we have left is eachother but hey eachother is all we really need.......

"Two Zero Two"

What’s this odd game that’s all over the airwaves?
It’s their loose lips that laid me so sick with an ear
pinned down on your chest…
And all I heard were sighs from that shotgun
that she hides so well, so well under that dress
My my what an awful mess…

Does that dress fit alright?
I wanna know why it falls off and on
Are you ok baby?
Hopefully Mississippi will lynch you like it did me...

I’m a cabaret
A Champaign café
Everyone uses to celebrate
But I’m just not ready to rot and dance and laugh
to the sweetest death I ever had…
Oh my you look awful with a mouthful
Of sex …like drugs
but I just can’t seem to switch off this machine
That turns ivory into kerosene

Does that dress fit alright?
I wanna know why it falls off and on
Are you ok baby?
Hopefully New York City will lose you like it did me

And I’ve got glass eyes that have died so many times
with thighs and sighs that scream I got to get mine...