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I said I said I'm going to get off this computer and get ready for facebook...no I'm not...I'm going to update my lj.
My eye keeps twitching...I think from lack of sleep.I really didn't help myself out by deciding to get up early and play sims. Really it's like playing dolls on computer.
I broke down last night due to handing in assignments consistently late and feeling hard done by it all. Well hard done by the fact I get pressured into doing other things when I know I should be studying. I'm not being lazy or procrastinating, I just seem to get convinced (or convince myself) that something else is more important and that I will have plenty of time to do the assignment later. However when it gets to later...it appears later is too late or much later then I expected.
Well no more I say! No more feeling hard done by...I've felt too much of that in the last month and frankly I've had enough. Goodness I just want so much to get done all at once and I guess it never happens fast enough, well as fast as I'd like it.
But I guess it's always thinking back where you realise how much you've achieved in a given amount of time. I think it's interesting now reflecting on last year. Alot of the time I tell people I wasted the year. Well I suppose it partially got wasted on emotional crap that could have been avoided, but I learnt a FUCKLOAD. In a way I did learn about what I had been looking forward to getting on with the year beforehand. I guess when I think about it, it probably would have also been fantastic to have a job and not gain 10kgs.
I'm really ready to get on with it. Get that job...get into that band, but I seem to give myself an endless checklist of things to do so when I need to get on with the important things it just never happens. Is what I'm doing a sub-conscious procrastination? I certainly don't feel like I'm actively putting off getting on with my life. Well...lets see where I am in a week. Alot of my checklist seems to have to do with the moving in part of my life and all things considered a week and a half ago I didn't live here. Things that will be done in a week:
Inkerman street cleaned and pruned
keys for Inkerman street handed over
Lounge room sorted
Garage tidied
Internet running
Completed bedroom? not sure yet...I was going to surprise Jess but due to her coming home early I'm not sure how much this will happen anymore.
I can't fight that urge...the cleaning/organisation bug in my brain that says I can't do anything until my home is sorted.
Hopefully before the week is up I think I should write up my resume anyway so by the time I've completed everything I can start sending it out straight away. Sounds like a plan :)
My eye keeps twitching...I think from lack of sleep.I really didn't help myself out by deciding to get up early and play sims. Really it's like playing dolls on computer.
I broke down last night due to handing in assignments consistently late and feeling hard done by it all. Well hard done by the fact I get pressured into doing other things when I know I should be studying. I'm not being lazy or procrastinating, I just seem to get convinced (or convince myself) that something else is more important and that I will have plenty of time to do the assignment later. However when it gets to later...it appears later is too late or much later then I expected.
Well no more I say! No more feeling hard done by...I've felt too much of that in the last month and frankly I've had enough. Goodness I just want so much to get done all at once and I guess it never happens fast enough, well as fast as I'd like it.
But I guess it's always thinking back where you realise how much you've achieved in a given amount of time. I think it's interesting now reflecting on last year. Alot of the time I tell people I wasted the year. Well I suppose it partially got wasted on emotional crap that could have been avoided, but I learnt a FUCKLOAD. In a way I did learn about what I had been looking forward to getting on with the year beforehand. I guess when I think about it, it probably would have also been fantastic to have a job and not gain 10kgs.
I'm really ready to get on with it. Get that job...get into that band, but I seem to give myself an endless checklist of things to do so when I need to get on with the important things it just never happens. Is what I'm doing a sub-conscious procrastination? I certainly don't feel like I'm actively putting off getting on with my life. Well...lets see where I am in a week. Alot of my checklist seems to have to do with the moving in part of my life and all things considered a week and a half ago I didn't live here. Things that will be done in a week:
Inkerman street cleaned and pruned
keys for Inkerman street handed over
Lounge room sorted
Garage tidied
Internet running
Completed bedroom? not sure yet...I was going to surprise Jess but due to her coming home early I'm not sure how much this will happen anymore.
I can't fight that urge...the cleaning/organisation bug in my brain that says I can't do anything until my home is sorted.
Hopefully before the week is up I think I should write up my resume anyway so by the time I've completed everything I can start sending it out straight away. Sounds like a plan :)