So long since I've seen your face.......
UUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!
That sums up my feelings right now. I hate math with a passion...I don't get it. I hate feeling stupid. It sucks.
I wanna move out to my dad's. My mom has been really getting under my skin. Plus I'll learn how to take care of myself if I live out there. Oh and he doesn't care too much that I'm getting a tattoo when I turn 18. Its not that he is like..."Wow I'll pay for it!!" ... but it is more like,"If you're gonna do it, I really can't stop you."
I'm such a whore...if you know what I'm talking about...please just don't say anything to anybody. I'm not proud, but neither am I ashamed.
I wanna quit my job...I don't have enough time to sleep. I don't have enough time for school work. I think I need to cut my hours back some. I don't like being sleep deprived. I don't function well that way.
I do smile now...somedays. I'll just keep trying. I wanna find that love. I wanna not be so hung up on physical appearances. I wanna get him back. I wanna get him off my mind.
I miss Cole. I miss Julie. I don't miss the fighting or being used. I'm not appologizing for something I didn't do...I'm not dismissing something because..."that is just how ***** is Jana. There isn't much you can do"