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News travels fast in my family. 2 weeks ago, I told my cousin I was in the very early stages of seeing someone, and tonight my whole family was asking about my boyfriend. It hurt a little bit to have to tell them that the whole thing blew up in my face, but it also felt good knowing I'd dodged a huge bullet.
These past few weeks I've been reminiscing about my last relationship (I say last; I mean only), and realizing how toxic it was. I really was a different person, simultaneously self-hating and self-obsessed, and it's taken me over a year to get back to normal. And I realized that I don't HAVE to change in a relationship. The best way to be in a relationship is to be completely ok with yourself, only looking for someone to see you and love you. It seems obvious, but it's a really big realization for me, and a really exciting one. It makes the waiting easier, and better.
Here's to waiting.
These past few weeks I've been reminiscing about my last relationship (I say last; I mean only), and realizing how toxic it was. I really was a different person, simultaneously self-hating and self-obsessed, and it's taken me over a year to get back to normal. And I realized that I don't HAVE to change in a relationship. The best way to be in a relationship is to be completely ok with yourself, only looking for someone to see you and love you. It seems obvious, but it's a really big realization for me, and a really exciting one. It makes the waiting easier, and better.
Here's to waiting.