somethin in your eye makes me wanna lose myself. somethin in ur voice makes my heart beat fast.
man, did i have a fun night last night. i was over at my old friend amy's house and we were trashed. then i came home and i was talkng to my friend amanda for like 2 hours and then passed out cuz everything was spinning. i also talked to my mom yesterday and found out that i'm leaving tomorrow(tuesday)night. i think im gunna buy a new surfboard when i get home. mine is so beat. i kinda wanna come home but i kinda dont. i dont know. i miss it here al lthe time. i say that everyday..cuz its the truth. my old friends are the best ever. they've known me since i was little so they're all like, sisters to me. i am just now starting to have fun. i was supposed to be doing this when i first got here..not when im about to leave. amanda said she was gunna take me to a party this weekend cuz she didnt think i was leavingtill saturday, and we were gunna go frieday night to a party, but that cant happen. i should have hung out with her saturday night. she ent to a party. and my friend michaela went too. oh well. i guess thats the good part of not living with in the same state w/people you've known ur whole life u can have better times, enjoy them more, and remember them the best cuz u never know if ur gunna be able to do it again. cuz who knows what happens when ur 2,000 miles away from ur friends. and ur neve gunna get sick of them and wanna hang out w/different people. me and amanda are hanging out today. she told me last ngiht she wants to hang out with me today cuz it is my last night here and she wants me to have fun cuz she knows how bored i get here al alone by myself. i miss my brother. things are so weird without him. i havent seen him for like a month now. i feel bad cuz i promised him i would get him somehting, but i dont have any money on me. just like $50. i wanted to get him a few pairs fo baggies or soething but well. i'm sure he'll understand. ill just get him somehting from new york. he'll probably like that better. i'm so fucking homesick right now its not even funny. i hate it. i wish i could just go and have a good time without missing people. im upset because my boyfriend didnt call me last night or yesterday at all. he always calls me to tell me goodnight and he didnt last night. im kinda pissed about that cuz i specifically told him, call me at 9:00. and he didnt. why dont people listen to the biggest things, but they dont pay any attention to the things you say that mean alot more than the big things. its little shit like that, that makes me mad. i hate it. i need to start running in the morning when i get home. i need to get in shape for volleyball. i got camps this summer, and i dont wanna blow my chance of being on varsity. anyways..i miss my friends from school, too. i havent talked to ANY of them except katie cuz shes like going out with my boyfriends cousin and she is my boyfriends best friend..so theres no geting outta that one. i think i just wanna come home and make it all better. megan, we're hanging out when i get home.and katie d., we're going to hang out too, cuz i promised you and i dont break my promises. well, i guess im going to go for now. josh, if u read this, call me today. sorry i missed ur call yesterday, my phone was in amy's kitchen and i was i her room. i have a few things to talk to u about k? well, im going now.
*-jess-*