inspired by claire's post. buttt worse.
so i don't really know.
this year has been so complicated and so much shit has happened.
i'm pretty sure i've lost my best friend of 8 years. it's nobody's fault.
we've both just kind of changed. it's just so weird not having "a best friend" that you know you can talk to anytime, about anything and they'll say just the right thing.
i suppose it was bound to happen. it's hard to keep a friendship strong when you leave half an hour away from each other...and you both have other shit going on your lives.
it's just such a weird feeling.
and the thing is....neither of us can admit that we aren't friends anymore. we still call each other pretty frequently, almost out of obligation. but it's not the same. we both know that. i guess it's easier to pretend like nothings happened.
it's just so weird, we used to be inseperable. we both assumed we'd be the kind of friends who go to college together....our kids would be best friends. that type of shit.
it's weird not having a friend like that anymore.
i realize that this post isn't that interesting for anyone else...but i'm really kind of lost at what i should do. i had a meltdown about it yesterday, and i thought i would feel better today. but i don't.
i just got to thinking about a whole bunch of shit....that i'm losing all these friendships with people...and there has to be a reason right?
i'm obviously not a good friend if people don't care that our friendships are dying.
i took these friendships (i'm not only talking about carla anymore) for granted....and expected them to survive without me putting that much effort into them.
alright, well writing about it didn't really help either. it just made me more upset. i'm gonna go have another meltdown before the game.
oh yeah, we are playing the state championships today. 3 pm.
2565 SW Ek Road, West Linn, OR .
come if you want.
this year has been so complicated and so much shit has happened.
i'm pretty sure i've lost my best friend of 8 years. it's nobody's fault.
we've both just kind of changed. it's just so weird not having "a best friend" that you know you can talk to anytime, about anything and they'll say just the right thing.
i suppose it was bound to happen. it's hard to keep a friendship strong when you leave half an hour away from each other...and you both have other shit going on your lives.
it's just such a weird feeling.
and the thing is....neither of us can admit that we aren't friends anymore. we still call each other pretty frequently, almost out of obligation. but it's not the same. we both know that. i guess it's easier to pretend like nothings happened.
it's just so weird, we used to be inseperable. we both assumed we'd be the kind of friends who go to college together....our kids would be best friends. that type of shit.
it's weird not having a friend like that anymore.
i realize that this post isn't that interesting for anyone else...but i'm really kind of lost at what i should do. i had a meltdown about it yesterday, and i thought i would feel better today. but i don't.
i just got to thinking about a whole bunch of shit....that i'm losing all these friendships with people...and there has to be a reason right?
i'm obviously not a good friend if people don't care that our friendships are dying.
i took these friendships (i'm not only talking about carla anymore) for granted....and expected them to survive without me putting that much effort into them.
alright, well writing about it didn't really help either. it just made me more upset. i'm gonna go have another meltdown before the game.
oh yeah, we are playing the state championships today. 3 pm.
2565 SW Ek Road, West Linn, OR .
come if you want.