Drama=insane
All this drama needs to end, and soon. I seriously dont think i can take anymore of this. I have been going from high to low and from low to high emotions way to often lately and i think my head is about ready to explode. Im gonna crack if this drama does not stop. Honestly I'm not even gonna take the time or effort into pointing fingers and assigning blame to one invidual person because at this point i think everyone involved is equally to blame. We all helped cause this drama and made the situation what it is now soo in order to regain composer of it we all need to put the same amount of effort if not more into fixing things. Letting things sit the way they are is just going to cause more drama in the end and god knows that no one wants that. I just want things to be back to normal and im sure everyone else does to. I just want to go on living my life in a manner that doesnt involve me or anyone else wanting slit each others throats. If ive learned one thing from my 5 or 6 weeks of college ive learned that things will work themselves out in the end and worrying over them never helps..it usually only makes things worse. Soo hopefully one day soon this drama can be resolved and everything will be well on its way back to normalacy.
In other news, I dont even know what to think of me and steve anymore. I have no idea what his take on us getting back together is and im still not completely sure if i want to at the moment. Either way it wont be for a long time soo i guess we both have a lot of time to figure stuff out. And just soo hes aware of this me not being completely sure if i want to get back together does not mean that im giving up on us. Deep down in my heart i still believe that some way some how we can make this work. Why i believe that i dont know but i do. He will forever be a part of me no matter what people say because he was my first true love. Im coming home thing weekend soo hopefullly me and him will be able to sit down and have a nice long chat about things that are going on...a chat that doesnt involve the use of a telephone. Im hoping that we can get alot of issues resolved for the most part and that things will somehow find away to improve between us. But one thing is for sure..no matter what happens between us I will always consider steve one of my best friends in the entire world.
But ya like i said im coming home this weekend soo if you wanna hang out just give the cell a call. I'm not exactly sure what im doing yet but i know that saturday is def glow bowling with the waldas. As far as iknow sunday afternoon/night into monday is edinboro time with steve, janelle, carly, dan, and whoever else. Then tuesday its off to MPS to visit the teachers and then steves taking me back to IUP. But i guess thats about it sooo ya im out cuz its back to bed for lil ole me since i do have chem at 8 am tomorrow...yay for that..NOT! im outtie kids. Night
In other news, I dont even know what to think of me and steve anymore. I have no idea what his take on us getting back together is and im still not completely sure if i want to at the moment. Either way it wont be for a long time soo i guess we both have a lot of time to figure stuff out. And just soo hes aware of this me not being completely sure if i want to get back together does not mean that im giving up on us. Deep down in my heart i still believe that some way some how we can make this work. Why i believe that i dont know but i do. He will forever be a part of me no matter what people say because he was my first true love. Im coming home thing weekend soo hopefullly me and him will be able to sit down and have a nice long chat about things that are going on...a chat that doesnt involve the use of a telephone. Im hoping that we can get alot of issues resolved for the most part and that things will somehow find away to improve between us. But one thing is for sure..no matter what happens between us I will always consider steve one of my best friends in the entire world.
But ya like i said im coming home this weekend soo if you wanna hang out just give the cell a call. I'm not exactly sure what im doing yet but i know that saturday is def glow bowling with the waldas. As far as iknow sunday afternoon/night into monday is edinboro time with steve, janelle, carly, dan, and whoever else. Then tuesday its off to MPS to visit the teachers and then steves taking me back to IUP. But i guess thats about it sooo ya im out cuz its back to bed for lil ole me since i do have chem at 8 am tomorrow...yay for that..NOT! im outtie kids. Night