Empty
I have this sick feeling that i ruined my life last night. That i lost the best thing that has ever happened to me. That im never gonna find anyone else. Whats wrong with me...why do i do these things that end up making myself miserable. Why do i hurt myself like this...its like im breaking my own heart. WHY did i make the biggest mistake of my fucking life last night....WHY DID I LET HIM GO! I hate myself soo much right now and i just wish that i wasnt alive. Theres no point in living without him here. I sick part is that i still love him unconditionally and i still let go of the best man that could ever walk into my life. I hurt him i hurt myself and my heart is just is peices. Thats all i ever do is hurt people soo stay away i might hurt you to. I FUCKING SUCK! Maybe one day i just wont wake up and i wont have to continue living...that will surely be a happy day...goodbye.