PrOm and ThInGs
Wow, I really cant believe that its may already...thats just crazy seeing as how it SNOWED today...damn erie. I also seriously cant believe that im graduating high school in just a few short weeks...thats insane as well. I never thought itd be here and now that it is i kinda wish it wasnt. I mean i do but then i dont because im gonna miss the friends all the memories that ive made over the course of my four years spent at MPS. Then again maybe its time for a new change...new experiences, new friends, new beginnings...i think thats best for me. I have a lot of things going on this week and as of today i have no free weekends left from now until the end of august because they have been so graciously handed over to waldameer. Tomorrow is a jeans day and then after school i have to go to walda orientation from 4-6. Wednesday is the pre-prom assembly and then after school im going to the mall with kelly A and janelle to get my nails done. Thursday is the ascension thursday liturgy which means i have to wear dress uniform for the second day in a row. Prom is friday so we have a half day and then im off to do all the prom related things that were mentioned in my last update. After prom im thinking that we are all going glow bowling and then to perkins to eat/chill for awhile. Not to sure about the whole spending the night with steve thing...doesnt look to good tho. My dads being a dick and is trying to tell me that i cant stay out all night but fuck him im going to do what i want when i want because its my senior prom and well he can kiss my ass. All i wanted was one special night spent sleeping in steves arms but no i dont even get the satisfaction of that. He refuses to take me and janelle to orientation tomorrow too because ya its my fault that i HAVE to go..fucker. Now i have to find rides to that and to/from the mall on wednesday...beautiful! I feel bad my grama is taking me everywhere this week...its bad enough that she has to cart my ass around on prom as well. Im sick of not being able to drive and im really sick of living in this house under all these rules...my dad watches me like a hawk and its getting really fucking annoying. I know hes just trying to protect me but come on im almost 18 if the world hasnt hurt me enough already then i dont know how much more i can take. I hate being the baby of the family because i get all the god damned double standards. My brother was allowed to have a million girls..none of which were his girlfriends...in his room when he was my age but me..nope...i cant even have my boyfriend of 7 1/2 months in my room to watch a movie...how is that fair!!! I feel like such a fucking little kid and its really starting to piss me off. Whatever tho ill be off on my own in a couple of months and then i wont have to live under the gay ass rules my father sets for me.