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Hmm well i think its time for an update. Today hasnt consisted of much...I woke up and cleaned up around here some more and then showered and went with nelle to get our prom dresses fitted up at Bridal Elegance. That was interesting let me tell you. I love my dress soo much..the price however is a different story. Everything total came out to $492...My dad almost shit when he found that out..oops! Oh well tho im happy with my dress and im going to look like a princess in it especially since im going to be escorted by my prince. Anywho then we dropped janelle off and home and i caught my finger the door...like the door actually shut all the way with my finger in it..OW!! Then me and dad went to dinner and now im here.
Ok moving on... I really want to go out to edinboro and visit steve and maybe even spend the night there but ya im sure that wont happen anytime soon. I brought the idea up to my dad today and it didnt go over to well. He didnt totally rule it out yet but its not looking to good..the answer is always the same "I dont know." He still doesnt believe that i go out to the boro and sit at perkins while steve is working..that is where i am tho soo he cant really say anything. I dont think hes ever gonna be ok with me going out to edinboro to spend time with steve and that really sucks because i miss him like woah x 100000000. I want to be with him every second of every day and i want to love him alot alot. Weve been dating for over 6 months now and i think its time that im allowed to at least go out there and chill in his dorm if not anything else..not stay overnight or any of that but no i still cant. I dont get why its such a big deal..Arg! Im gonna be going to college in the fall soo he better get used to me being out at a college campus. I hate being the baby of the family..Overprotection ready go! My dad was also lecturing me today about how he wishes that i would have gone to a local college because i have to go to orientation for IUP on June 2nd. Someone tell me how this is my fault?!?!?! Anyway back to the steve thing... My dad tells me all the time how he trusts us and everything but yet he still doesnt let me do what i want...grr i might as well give up on even trying to get out to edinboro...theres no hope anymore. My father is soooo god damn controlling and i hate it soo much. I want to be in college NOW just soo i could do what i want when i want to. Ok im done venting now!
Now since steve soo nicely asked for a sappy update hes going to get one because i love him. He makes me soooo happy beyond belief. I seriously never thought that any guy could make me as happy as he makes me. Lets say im having the most horrible day ever..Ill wait all day to call him and the minute i hear his voice everything bad that happened that day and all the tears that may have been shed just miraculously go away...thats how great he is. I honestly and maturely cant even fathom what my life would be without him. Hes the best thing that has ever happened to me..EVER! Being away from him just makes me want to die and it feels like someone is ripping my heart out and stepping on it but that feeling immediately goes away when i see him even if it is only for an hour or two. He is the most adorable and loving guy ever and being in his arms is only place i would ever wish to be when im scared or hurt or anything at all. I feel safe there and i know that hes going to protect me whenever he can. Hes always there for me no matter what the situation. Even if he cant be here in person to hold me i always know that hes just a phone call away anytime day or night and thats a wonderful feeling. Ive always wanted someone who i know would care enough to be there through thick and thin. I love him more than life itself and i would do everything in my power to keep him in my life. No one will ever be able compare to the amount of love he gives to me or even the amount of love we share. Its incredible because i never thought that i could love someone this much but now that i know i can im never going to let that love go. Honestly... I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE
Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
And these are the moments
I know all I need is this
I've found all I've waited for,yeah
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
Every dream I've had's come true
Yeah, right here in this moment
Is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me
Yeah
Ok moving on... I really want to go out to edinboro and visit steve and maybe even spend the night there but ya im sure that wont happen anytime soon. I brought the idea up to my dad today and it didnt go over to well. He didnt totally rule it out yet but its not looking to good..the answer is always the same "I dont know." He still doesnt believe that i go out to the boro and sit at perkins while steve is working..that is where i am tho soo he cant really say anything. I dont think hes ever gonna be ok with me going out to edinboro to spend time with steve and that really sucks because i miss him like woah x 100000000. I want to be with him every second of every day and i want to love him alot alot. Weve been dating for over 6 months now and i think its time that im allowed to at least go out there and chill in his dorm if not anything else..not stay overnight or any of that but no i still cant. I dont get why its such a big deal..Arg! Im gonna be going to college in the fall soo he better get used to me being out at a college campus. I hate being the baby of the family..Overprotection ready go! My dad was also lecturing me today about how he wishes that i would have gone to a local college because i have to go to orientation for IUP on June 2nd. Someone tell me how this is my fault?!?!?! Anyway back to the steve thing... My dad tells me all the time how he trusts us and everything but yet he still doesnt let me do what i want...grr i might as well give up on even trying to get out to edinboro...theres no hope anymore. My father is soooo god damn controlling and i hate it soo much. I want to be in college NOW just soo i could do what i want when i want to. Ok im done venting now!
Now since steve soo nicely asked for a sappy update hes going to get one because i love him. He makes me soooo happy beyond belief. I seriously never thought that any guy could make me as happy as he makes me. Lets say im having the most horrible day ever..Ill wait all day to call him and the minute i hear his voice everything bad that happened that day and all the tears that may have been shed just miraculously go away...thats how great he is. I honestly and maturely cant even fathom what my life would be without him. Hes the best thing that has ever happened to me..EVER! Being away from him just makes me want to die and it feels like someone is ripping my heart out and stepping on it but that feeling immediately goes away when i see him even if it is only for an hour or two. He is the most adorable and loving guy ever and being in his arms is only place i would ever wish to be when im scared or hurt or anything at all. I feel safe there and i know that hes going to protect me whenever he can. Hes always there for me no matter what the situation. Even if he cant be here in person to hold me i always know that hes just a phone call away anytime day or night and thats a wonderful feeling. Ive always wanted someone who i know would care enough to be there through thick and thin. I love him more than life itself and i would do everything in my power to keep him in my life. No one will ever be able compare to the amount of love he gives to me or even the amount of love we share. Its incredible because i never thought that i could love someone this much but now that i know i can im never going to let that love go. Honestly... I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE
Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
And these are the moments
I know all I need is this
I've found all I've waited for,yeah
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
Every dream I've had's come true
Yeah, right here in this moment
Is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me
Yeah