ugh
today was such a terrible terrible day...testing sux and it sux even worse if you have ongoing nausea the whole time you are testing...terrible i tell you. i felt so misplaced today, i felt like i didnt even fit in with my own friends. something just didnt feel right. it seemed like i had done something wrong that i didnt know about and no one would tell me, because it felt like i didnt have friends today. not one. and maybe the truth is that everyone including me best friends have just gotten tired of me, my personality must get old. but it hurts nonetheless. whatever, im tired of always being up and down..im just pretty tired of life. tired of trying relentlessly without results.