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[gimp_mind]

Demons of the mind come in all shapes and sizes, I believe based on how strongly they have a hold on one's self

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[coreyaugustus]

You've seen Anger Management. Get those anger monkeys off your back, bro.
GOOOOOOOSSSSFRRRRAAAAAABAAAAAA.....

[supercheyenne]

Works for me.

I feel pretty! Oh so pretty...

[gimp_mind]

The point was really that my anger really has no control over me, and that i wish that sometimes it did.

[supercheyenne]

Do you really? Do you really wish that you could lose control over your actions sometimes?

It's a scary feeling. I've spent my entire life learning to control my temper, and not let it control me. I've mastered it for the most part, but it scares me because I know what it's like to feel like you are no longer responsible for what you do. I always wonder if I have really learned to control my temper, or if it has just gone into hibernation and someday is going to come out all at once and cause me to do something I will really and truly regret.

[gimp_mind]

Yes, I really do. I can only recall losing my anger very few times in my life (less than 7), and sometimes I really want to be able to just boil over.

[supercheyenne]

Why do you want that? Curiosity? Just want to see what will happen? Or do you wish that you could really give someone what they deserve with out being stopped by foresight?

[gimp_mind]

Just for the feeling of not feeling and just letting loose and not holding back.

[supercheyenne]

Like rolling down a hill in a barrel.

[gimp_mind]

Not like that at all. When that happened I was only expecting to come out of it a little dizzy. It was not really an experience outside myself, though it may qualify as a near death experience.

[supercheyenne]

I see. How do you expect to come out if you lose control of your temper? Liberated?

[gimp_mind]

Are you asking how I will regain control once it has been lost?

The answer here is that I do not know.

Or are you asking how will the experience leave me feeling?

And again, sadly, the answer I do not know.

[supercheyenne]

I'm not entirely sure what I was asking, but I suppose you answered it. I still think that losing control of anger feels like rolling down a hill in a barrel, complete with the head smashing. However, it would probably come out better for you. Anger is usually very effective from the quick-witted. I'm not particularly articulate when I am in complete control, and usually when I lose it I sound like a stammering idiot. When I was younger I acted with my fists which brings some satisfaction, but then you always have to face the repercussions.

Wouldn't you rather lose control to the happies or something? Heehee. I think I just made up a word. Happies: n. something akin to a warm-fuzzy.

[gimp_mind]

No.

[supercheyenne]

Active rebellion against the happies.

[gimp_mind]

Most certainly.

[supercheyenne]

There's a cruel irony at play here. I was just now vacantly staring at your ewok icon and thinking that I needed a hug. My happies have abandoned me after one idiot FYS class. So ends my defense thereof.

I think I'll go cry now. Or swear.