randomness
Things have been going quite well lately...so far. Family is great, school is okay, friends are fabulous, and I'm good. I feel like a lot of things have been simplified in my life...I don't really know how to explain it. =X I have everything I need right now and I'm not really looking for more. I guess that's good, right!? =D
Well, even though I do seem sort of fine, I have a lot to spill out!
I'm scared. Extremely scared. I'm scared about the SATs that are coming in 2 weeks. I'm scared about how I will do this second semester. I'm scared about my summer...and I'm scared about Senior year. More importantly, I'm just scared about deciding where to attend college and just getting enough money to pay for it. You know, I'm not the type of person that is determined to get into UCLA or UCSD or any specific UC...I'm just determined to get into a college that will actually fit me and my needs. Personally, I think that one of the most important things about going to college is finding yourself (sorry its so corny. haha I had no other way to put it....) and learning in an environment that is suitable for you. As of right now, I'm not sure what is really suitable for me. My parents told me not to worry about money right now. They want me to apply to as many schools as I can and to forget about application fees. They even told me not to limit myself by not applying to private schools (which I really am leaning towards)...but private schools cost so much. So so so so much. When I told them that it doesn't really matter where I go, they said, "Don't be ridiculous. Don't even consider money as a factor. We can handle it." I know they're pretending like everything is fine, but really, it's not that great. Two kids in college? Insurance? House payments? My grandma? There's a lot of things to take care of. I'm scared about how they're gonna be. Man, growing up=more obligations=more money.
I guess that's enough for now....just some thoughts. Man guys, I'm really scared about the SATs!! Eck. I didn't take any classes like other people...I bet I'm going to do horrible!!! =\