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wow i havent updated in forever but i am now cuz i need sumwhere to spill my feelings n theres noone to talk to. this entry prolly wont be that good because im not a good writer and ive calmed down a bit since i was crying earlier. yea so summer..i had summer school. glad thats over. me n mickey broke up. i fucking hate him. hes turned into an arrogant asshole n i dont want nething to do with him nemore. he broke up with me about a month ago.. n sum days its very hard. others its great. i was so unhappy with him that whenever i get sad about him i think that id never get back with him neway. its just that i love him. but i hate him u kno? but i have a new bf now. jeff. hes amazing so far n im realli starting to like him. being single for a while was realli fun just doing wutever the hell i want. n i am better off without mickey. no matter how much i cry over him. ill eventually get over it. sumtimes i just want to be there with him n hold him like old times. but i kno itll never be like that. n once ppl are assholes. they stay assholes. so yea. were never getting back together. megan came back todayyyyy! i was so happy to see her. i thought the freakaz were gettting mature. but then i realized we were just missing megan. she makes me laugh n so happy. :) n i love how aly invited everyone to sleep over not just kim. (sarcastic)yea. that kinda pissed me off. i love hangin out with ashley n sarah n heather n all them n the guyz. they r realli nice ppl. i fucking hate assholes that mickey hangs out with. god i wish i culd just erase him from my life. its just weird how u can be so close to sumone one minute n the next u dont kno them nemore. but shit happens. wut can i say. life is shit. n u cant realli trust neone but yourself. all i need are sum headphones n the stars to look at at night. but being alone dus suck most the time. i just like someone to talk to n be there for me. i saw matt today n i realli wanted to talk to him but he was with everyone else so yea. i feel like i can relate to him alot. i just hope those assholes dont change him too. i hate feeling alone n like i dont matter. i just want someone to hold me n love me. i need jeff ryte now. i miss him. or i need sumone. idk.i dont kno if i can even depend on my freakaz nemore. there r so many great ppl out there that i wanna get close to. i dont kno why im stuck on a bunch of assholes. dammit. lol. yea this entry was shitty. ill update when i wanna spill my heart out again. later.
