merry fucking christmas
so i decided that sometimes life is just shitty to make you think about everythign you should be thankful for. for example: my sisters getting married: bad because of the possibility of divorce or sadness, and good because of a new beginning. teddy moving away: bad because you never realize how much a person meens to you until you can't just zoom over and see them, but good because i know he is happy being closer to school. working on my birthday: bad because hulloo, it's my birthday, but good because... ok so maybe i can't find a good for that one, but for the most part, its life's way of kicking my ass. i think i just might survive this christmas season, though broke i may be. i hate christmas and everythign it brings. stupid holiday chear and bullshit. giving people excuses to be nice to eachother and squishy crap like that. i hate that. but i feel like i will be ok. i hope i wuill be ok and not have a massive break down. wish me luck. love you all (or is it just the holidays speaking?)