Maps..
Listening to Black Holes and Revelations and wishing there were revelations to be had.
Win lose win lose all of the above..
I want more than I can have, I want for you to have more than I can say.
I want for myself just too much to ask.
And you.. I want you to make something of your life intead of sitting there failing at life when your family have done all they can.. and I've given all I can but I can't be there for you I can't hold you hand.
I can't stand to see you dropping down the drain.
Hopes and expectations.
But no relevations!
Except that there is winning losing and all of the above.
After a certain point you want to say no, I refuse to have new hurts piled on me, and after a certain point you have to give up, even on the people you love... ?
But I told myself I would never give up.
I cannot sit and watch family members destroy themselves.
I cannot turn a blind eye to this.
Whether I can do something or not... It hurts.
I am helpless.
In so many ways.
All I can do is sit here... All I can do is breathe in the pain until it becomes heavy vapours of despair, or lightens into mist and dissipates.
And no matter what, there is pain, there is regret.
And then there are the blatantly oblivious, the delusional, the abusive, the ones without sense and sensibility.
And the anger keeps surging up..
I shoudln't have to deal with this all this, let alone at once. I shouldn't be so affected.
I shouldn't care.
But I do.
And when everything I love comes back to pierce me..
I bleed, I cry, and I live still, when it'd be easiest to die from it.
I've been told I have a big heart.
In which case it's too big to fail of mere skewering.
It'd need to be blood poisoning, a real dying from the inside... and sometimes I feel like shriveling up, I feel that poisoning bitterness and anger well up, and the pain of scarring from previous skewerings.
And I can't live like this.
Something has to change. Something must be decided. Something must be done.
And I am helpless as everything happens outside of my control.
STARLIGHT Far away this ship has taken me far away far away from the memories of the people who care if I live or die.. Starlight I will be chasing a starlight until the end of my life I dont' know if it's worth it anymore Hold you in my arms I just wanted to hold you in my arms. My life you electrify my life Let's conspire to ignite all the souls that would die just to feel alive I'll never letyou go If you promise not to fade away Never fade away Our hopes and expectations Black holes and revelations Far away This ship has taken me far away...
MAP OF THE PROBLEMATIQUE Fear and panic in the air I want to be free From desolation and despair And I feel like everything I sow is being swept away Well I refuse to let you go I can't get it right since I met you. Loneliness be over when will this loneliness be over Life will flash before my eyes So scattered and lost I want to touch the other side. No one thinks they are to blame Why can't we see when we bleed the same I can't get it right ...
INVINCIBLE Follow through make your dreams come true Don't give up the fight you will be all right Because there's no one like youin the universe. Don't be afraid of what your mind conceives you should make a stand Stand up for what you believe And tonight we can truly say Together we're invincible. During the struggle they will pull us down but please please let use this chance to turn things around And tonight we can truly say together we're invincible. Do it on your own it makes no difference to me What you leave behind and what you choose to be and whatever they say your soul's unbreakable...
KNIGHTS OF CYDONIA Come ride with me through the veins of history ... ... Don't waste your time or time will waste you No one's gonna take me alive The time has come to make things right You and I must fight for our rights You and I must fight to survive..
Win lose win lose all of the above..
I want more than I can have, I want for you to have more than I can say.
I want for myself just too much to ask.
And you.. I want you to make something of your life intead of sitting there failing at life when your family have done all they can.. and I've given all I can but I can't be there for you I can't hold you hand.
I can't stand to see you dropping down the drain.
Hopes and expectations.
But no relevations!
Except that there is winning losing and all of the above.
After a certain point you want to say no, I refuse to have new hurts piled on me, and after a certain point you have to give up, even on the people you love... ?
But I told myself I would never give up.
I cannot sit and watch family members destroy themselves.
I cannot turn a blind eye to this.
Whether I can do something or not... It hurts.
I am helpless.
In so many ways.
All I can do is sit here... All I can do is breathe in the pain until it becomes heavy vapours of despair, or lightens into mist and dissipates.
And no matter what, there is pain, there is regret.
And then there are the blatantly oblivious, the delusional, the abusive, the ones without sense and sensibility.
And the anger keeps surging up..
I shoudln't have to deal with this all this, let alone at once. I shouldn't be so affected.
I shouldn't care.
But I do.
And when everything I love comes back to pierce me..
I bleed, I cry, and I live still, when it'd be easiest to die from it.
I've been told I have a big heart.
In which case it's too big to fail of mere skewering.
It'd need to be blood poisoning, a real dying from the inside... and sometimes I feel like shriveling up, I feel that poisoning bitterness and anger well up, and the pain of scarring from previous skewerings.
And I can't live like this.
Something has to change. Something must be decided. Something must be done.
And I am helpless as everything happens outside of my control.
STARLIGHT Far away this ship has taken me far away far away from the memories of the people who care if I live or die.. Starlight I will be chasing a starlight until the end of my life I dont' know if it's worth it anymore Hold you in my arms I just wanted to hold you in my arms. My life you electrify my life Let's conspire to ignite all the souls that would die just to feel alive I'll never letyou go If you promise not to fade away Never fade away Our hopes and expectations Black holes and revelations Far away This ship has taken me far away...
MAP OF THE PROBLEMATIQUE Fear and panic in the air I want to be free From desolation and despair And I feel like everything I sow is being swept away Well I refuse to let you go I can't get it right since I met you. Loneliness be over when will this loneliness be over Life will flash before my eyes So scattered and lost I want to touch the other side. No one thinks they are to blame Why can't we see when we bleed the same I can't get it right ...
INVINCIBLE Follow through make your dreams come true Don't give up the fight you will be all right Because there's no one like youin the universe. Don't be afraid of what your mind conceives you should make a stand Stand up for what you believe And tonight we can truly say Together we're invincible. During the struggle they will pull us down but please please let use this chance to turn things around And tonight we can truly say together we're invincible. Do it on your own it makes no difference to me What you leave behind and what you choose to be and whatever they say your soul's unbreakable...
KNIGHTS OF CYDONIA Come ride with me through the veins of history ... ... Don't waste your time or time will waste you No one's gonna take me alive The time has come to make things right You and I must fight for our rights You and I must fight to survive..