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even though i am grounded i am kind of glad i was- me and my dad have had alot of quality time and we havnt had that in a while- i dont know what i would do without my dad he has so much life in him and i hope i have that when i reach his age. he has really been there for me the last couple of months and he is always there to talk to me-
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he gives me butterfly's and i have only hung out with him twice-i am so fickle but i hope this doesnt go away-he is someone i could see something with i just don't know how i am ever going to see him- he is always working-
i wish i could be happy for him like i say i am- but i am not- they dont talk they dont hold hands-no contact what so ever-i was a bitch and i understand that-and i walked all over him- it kinda seems like she walks all over him 2- so you would think he would want something better but all i see is the same thing starting all over again-
someone told me the reason he doesnt talk to me is so he can prove his loyalty??? well i am going to prove my loyalty by not forgetting the friendship we had and stil having hope that we can maybe rely on eachother again.I might not be totally right for him but neither is she.i hate her for ruining a friendship like we had.At this point it was a waste and i do regret ever meeting him- i remeber our first date our first kiss and the first time i ever talked to him- but i can't remember the last time we laughed-i wish i would have been more effectinate and loved him more- but i guess i could keep saying i wish but nothing will ever change-people say don't worry your prettier, well i could give a shit about being prettier she has him....thats all i care about. i am going to talk about this until it is beaten in the ground-Who knows maybe he is happy. maybe he finally got what he wanted.Someone he doesnt have to worry about.If this isnt real why am i still morning over it???Make it go away-i dont want it ne more-i ask myself questions like what if we met now ? would it had been different? it probably would have.what makes me really pissed off is he enjoys every tear that falls down my face and every frown i have.he loves the revenge in it. oh well i am sick of talking about a lost cause...
*burnett*
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he gives me butterfly's and i have only hung out with him twice-i am so fickle but i hope this doesnt go away-he is someone i could see something with i just don't know how i am ever going to see him- he is always working-
i wish i could be happy for him like i say i am- but i am not- they dont talk they dont hold hands-no contact what so ever-i was a bitch and i understand that-and i walked all over him- it kinda seems like she walks all over him 2- so you would think he would want something better but all i see is the same thing starting all over again-
someone told me the reason he doesnt talk to me is so he can prove his loyalty??? well i am going to prove my loyalty by not forgetting the friendship we had and stil having hope that we can maybe rely on eachother again.I might not be totally right for him but neither is she.i hate her for ruining a friendship like we had.At this point it was a waste and i do regret ever meeting him- i remeber our first date our first kiss and the first time i ever talked to him- but i can't remember the last time we laughed-i wish i would have been more effectinate and loved him more- but i guess i could keep saying i wish but nothing will ever change-people say don't worry your prettier, well i could give a shit about being prettier she has him....thats all i care about. i am going to talk about this until it is beaten in the ground-Who knows maybe he is happy. maybe he finally got what he wanted.Someone he doesnt have to worry about.If this isnt real why am i still morning over it???Make it go away-i dont want it ne more-i ask myself questions like what if we met now ? would it had been different? it probably would have.what makes me really pissed off is he enjoys every tear that falls down my face and every frown i have.he loves the revenge in it. oh well i am sick of talking about a lost cause...
*burnett*